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NOW on the BACK TRACK

2010-10-13T02:53:00.000-07:00

NOW ON THE BACK TRACK

I turned on my laptop tonight on my usual routine when I go home from closing duty as I watch a few shows on tv. I happened to dwell on one of my best girls' fb account. She just graduated the other day and I am so proud of her. How I wish we could have all graduated at the same time but Alma and I had an inevitable choice of graduating before them. We haven't seen each other for months now and I miss them terribly. I feel like my life at present is just dwelling on my current work. That's all. After that, game over. I have nothing and have done nothing. I am only 23 years old and I am acting like I have no where else to go. I love my work, I do. It makes me happy but I have to say that it doesn't make me feel complete as a young professional. I can't even consider myself as a young professional now. Anyway, I looked into her account and found out that she is now hired by Megaworld. Training for property consultant. I am again so proud of my dear friend! But then again, I begin to think of myself on the present lane. I just think that it is already more than enough of the time that I should have stayed with Sbux. Now though is not the right time to resign and job hunt. I am going to be transferred to a pioneer store and it is a great opportunity I think. I will give myself only up to the christmas promo's end then I need to set my priorities straight and back on the game. I need to.

New goals:

1. Lose weight

Options: jogging, brisk walking, diet and no to any form of snack and addt'l rice.

2. Save money

I am such a spender, I have to learn.

3. New career path

Start on this immediately after Christmas promo of Sbux.

4. Be friends again with social life

I tend to forget my social life since I'm with sbux. I'm just too tired and I just want to rest on day offs.

I can do this!!!

13 Oct. 2010 -- 2:53am

You're my heartbleed.

2010-09-14T10:40:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE MY HEARTBLEED.

It's been more than a year now since my last entry. On a nutshell, I was really just putting pieces of my life in different notebooks or in different parts of my crazy world. Now, I'm trying to get back on blogging. Through this, not a lot of people can get to read since this is not a note on facebook or an entry in multiply. This is just my personal space.

The title, of course has it's own story.

Last weekend, I went for a 3-day vacation in Tanjay to celebrate my 23rd and my sister's 22nd birthday. Up to that moment last Friday, W and I we're in the "complicated" yet exclusive kind of relationship. I don't know, we always were. At the same time, D and I were of the past but has remained contact and are somehow what I can call friends. I like it actually since we were never just friends before we got together years back. Naturally, I expected to W beside me during my stay and finally put a name on what we actually have together. Are we or are we not kind of thing. What happened was the complete opposite. My heart leapt because of D's company and wept of W's insensitivity. I'm hurting once again. Let me just pour my heart out here. I again expected too much from a person that wouldn't really give much away for his partner. The worst part of it, he seems not to care even if he continues to say that he does. I don't see it, I don't feel it. I'm thinking that maybe this is just me but actually, there really is something wrong in the situation that we have. Maybe it is just me holding on and he doesn't want to be involved in any way anymore. I understand he has a kid now. I should have been mad since when I count back, he was with the girl while we were in good terms ourselves. Such an asshole really.

You, W, are really my heatbleed. You have played this role in my life for many years now. How many more times should I allow you to do this to me. I know the answer ok? You don't have to remind me. It's just that when it is already there, could I really stop myself? I would always want to know the "what if" kind of questions and therefore would repeat it all over again until I finally know the answer.

Until last Sunday, the day I fly back here in Manila, I was waiting for him. It was his birthday. He didn't care at all. And he has the nerve to ask why I am always mad at him and why I make such a deal that we didn't see each other during those 3 days. God how insensitive he really is. Can't he put it in his fickle little mind that he couldn't give me even an hour from the whole 3 days I'm there to be with me? or even just a few minutes of the whole weekend to see me? No he couldn't. I hate him for it. And then he now tells me that it's better for me to forget him since he is "walang kwenta" as he puts it, and that it would be better for me. Really?? come on! It would be better for him maybe. He would be free of me and my naggering him all the time! I hate him.

Good thing during that 3-day stay was that D was there with me. Of all people, I didn't expect it from him. Thank you D. I super appreciate it. M is really lucky to have you. Good luck! D went to my birthday after party, accompanied me till dawn, ate burgers with me, talked to me, drove me the next day and even offered to be with me that night for drinks. You've changed D, you are now a whole new person far better from the boyfriend I had in you years back. Thank you.

YOu, W, are an insult to the race of men. You should be ashamed of yourself. I hate you. You make me cry, you make me hate myself, make me feel insecure even if I am far better than your petty whore girls. You hurt once more now and I'll make sure this is the last. There will be no more turning back. Our book is closed (more like a whole volume of books) and you will be my heartbleed only up to today at 2:25am sept. 15, 2010. This is the last of your silly games on me.

My heart is again hurting, tears still falling down my cheeks. I will wipe them dry, breathe and try to sleep. When I awake, you will not be in my system and I will just have to look forward and move on to the next step away from you.

Good night diary.

New Hair for (Chinese) New Year.

2009-01-26T10:06:00.000-08:00

I've had my hair cut last jan. 25 not really for chinese new year but just a spur at that moment. In short, nagkataon lang. Of course, I can't help but take pictures can I?? HAHAHAHAHAHA. anyway, my hair is curly in reality, it's just straight for that day since I came from the parlor. I really prefer curly :) This short of a cut is the shortest I've had for the past couple of years. Grabe, this could be called a leap from my normal look. hehe. My favorite is when it is semi-wet and about to dry but not yet dry, "get nyo?" hahahaha coz the curls are perfect and not yet fluffy..

Hmmm, actually wla lang. gusto ko lang i-post talaga :) There are tons of pics but I'll be putting a few na lang :)

Look up your bday and see WHAT YOU ARE.

2009-01-23T15:51:00.000-08:00

January 01 - 09 ~ Ass January 10 - 24 ~Slug January 25 - 31 ~Cockroach	February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite February 06 - 14 ~Bullfrog February 15 - 21 ~Skunk February 22 - 28 ~ Snake	March 01 - 12 ~ Ape March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach March 16 - 23 ~ Slug March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite
April 01 - 03 ~ Ass April 04 - 14 ~ Snake April 15 - 26 ~ Slug April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk	May 01 - 13 ~ Slug May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach	June 01 - 03 ~ Slug June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk June 15 - 20 ~ Ass June 21 - 24 ~ Ape June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite
July 01 - 09 ~ Slug July 10 - 15 ~ Ass July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite	August 01 - 15 ~ Ape August 16 - 25 ~ Slug August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk	September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite September 28 - 30 ~ Ass
October 01 - 15 ~ Ape October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk October 28 - 31 ~ Snake	November 01 - 16 ~Cockroach November 17 - 30 ~Parasite	December 01 - 16 ~ Ass December 17 - 25 ~ Ape December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog

If you are an Ass : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble, and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, a! ll of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Slug : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... Hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Parasite : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give, and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Bullfrog: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. ! They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Snake : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, yo u may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!

Drinks Part II

2009-01-20T01:16:00.000-08:00

DRINKS PART II

The ladies didn't get enough from last Friday night and since we still have some, we're having a part 2! This is also going to be a "missing" party for Henz since she went on LOA just recently (very recent) and so we won't be seeing her that much.. Pag natuloy pa xa sa Dubai, ewan ko nlng..

I miss you already Henz!

Jan. 22 (Thursday)

Come what may.

2009-01-20T00:57:00.000-08:00

COME WHAT MAY.

I'm watching star movies now.. naiinlove na naman ako sa movie na to.. Do you guys still remember Moulin Rouge? I so love come what may na song.. nakakadala.. Galing ng projections super. It's been a long time I heard this and I miss it!

I need to quote:

Never knew I could feel like this

Like I've never seen the sky before

I want to vanish inside your kiss

Every day I'm loving you more than this

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?

Telling me to give you everything

Seasons may change, winter to spring

But I love you until the end of time

Come what may

I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Suddenly it moves with such a perfct grace

Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high

No river too wide

Sing out this song I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather

And stars may collide

But I love you until the end of time

Ang sarap naman ma-inlove if kantahan ka ng ganito noh? hahaha. super fantasy! hehe

It's like love will feed you up to your very last craving. Moulin Rouge proved this.. Love until the end of time..

"The greatest thing you have to learn is to love and be loved" - Ewan McGregor

Who's in love???? hahahahaha

'Twilight' remake by ABS-CBN

2008-12-23T18:16:00.000-08:00

Filipino fans of Stephenie Meyer's "Twilight" series will soon have another reason to celebrate after broadcasting giant ABS-CBN bagged the exclusive rights to make a local television series based on the vampire novels.

Initial reports said ABS-CBN paid $1 million with co-producer Ignite Media for the rights to the Twilight series.

The new series, tentatively titled "Takipsilim", will reunite the onscreen tandem of Rayver Cruz and Shaina Magdayao.

Taping for the series will start February of next year. Some parts of the series will be shot abroad and the other locations include Tagaytay, Bukidnon and Baguio. The series will be directed by Cathy Garcia-Molina.

as of 12/24/2008 12:14 PM

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Should there always be a filipino version for everything?? Gosh, I so love twilight but please don't make it into a tagalog series.. Leave the beautiful story be and leave the fans be at rest with the story of the twilight saga.. shux..

What do you guys think?

Twilight Philippine Version Cast:

Edward Cullen= RAYVER CRUZ

Shaina Magdayao as Isabella Swan

Gabby Concepcion as Dr. Carlisle Cullen
Valeen Montenegro as Alice Cullen

Luis Manzano as Emmett Cullen

Al Tantay as Charlie Swan

Yayo Aguila as Renee Dwyer

Fred Payawan as Jacob Black
Carlos Agassi as James
Chin Chin Gutierrez as Esme Cullen
Karylle as Rosalie Hale
Joross Gamboa as Jasper Hale
Jessy Mendiola as Jessica Stanley
Empress Schuck as Angela Weber
Brad Murdoch as Laurent
Nikki Bacolod as Victoria
Aaron Villaflor as Mike Newton

Sign a Petition "NO to Takipsilim(the FIlipino Twilight Series)"

CLICK THIS LINK:

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/say-no-to-twilight-fil

RINO and CHICKEN (codenames for toot) tremendously mood swingers/ unpredictable

2008-12-20T00:44:00.000-08:00

I'M USING CODENAMES FOR THE PEOPLE INVOLVED IN HERE. PARA WALA SABIT. if you read this and you're part, you'll recognize the story. But then again, none of the people involved will. I will have no face to show.. Buti nlng this is only for the next two weeks. hahaha

hmmm.. I'm in the province for christmas vacation and I don't know what to do actually. Not really making many plans.. just going day by day.

last night, I was having part 2 of my dinner at around 10 in the evening with Ate S and Kuya J, when suddenly, someone (let's name him RINO for rinosaurus -- hehehe), texted me where I was and that we should go out.. hmm, how did he know I was here again? Oh i know, CANDY (another codename) texted through his phone and so he finally knew that I'm around town. I replied that I was at the house and they wanted me to go out of the house coz there outside. I did. Silly of me really. went to Rizal for tambay.. They let me meet their friends.. sori, I'm too bad with names, I'll probably forget the others.. sori again. anyway, super awkward coz RINO went behind me and tugged my arms! I asked what that was about and he suddenly jerked away! He thought I was THING (another codename)! He was doing the same thing with her before he did it to me! Super kahiya! Everyone with us saw what happened and of course, they know of OUR past.. hay! super silly. that was the closest (physically) that we've been for the longest time since "us". Shux, so highschool! I didn't want him to be thinking about it so much kasi nga, super awkward na to begin with.

At the back of my mind, I was thinking of whether I'll be seeing CHICKEN or not. The other half of my mind was honestly thinking about what happened earlier that evening with RINO. bad of me. CHICKEN arrived and joined our group! OH NO! I've never been on the same place with the two of them together and talking with the two of them at the same time. So annoying! Oh well anyway, later on, CHICKEN was acting as if nothing really bad happened before! Palangga pa jud kuno ko niya and gidugangan pa sa iya mga barkada.. really nice people but then again, lisod na.. Let's see in the days to come..

Sige xa duol, ug sandig sandig sa ako luyo! hikap sa kamot, tig-holding hands pa! amay! ako ra gipasagdan gamay kay murag naka-inom na to.. coz if he didn't drink, he'd be jerking away from me just the same way as before. ang takot niya sakin, mas matindi pa sa takot niya sa police na pwede manghuli! :) pero anyway.. it was weird. I was allowing him those moments that we were together.. he kept on pulling my hair and smelling it.. kissing my head and the side of my ear. ano ba yan! I shouldn't be doing this! Not with CHICKEN! let's see. Haven't seen him today.. He might be ashamed of himself of something but that is absolutely fine with me. couldn't face him anyway. hahahaha.

I should be going to BY tonight.. Maybe I shouldn't nlng muna tonight.. Kasi sila ulit ang kasama eh.. delikado! I'll sleep this through and we'll see again tom :)

TILL THEN, my stories in neg. will be written here in the next few days.

separation/reunion

2008-12-04T21:47:00.000-08:00

DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THIS FROM ME, LOTS OF REVELATIONS HERE. (something inside me hopes you read this, but my shame hopes you wouldn't)

I, together with some IS friends and "used to be prof", Ms. Tana, went out after one wednesday to have coffee. But, ended up in Yellow Cab..

What would we be talking about anyway? hahah. Philip was there, so kwela sobra. haha, until it was brought up that Ms. Tana is into her newly found hobby, card reading (tarot cards!) EXCITING!!!!! hahaha. We chose the separation/reunion spread. I went first. Those of you who really know must know who I was thinking about.. RIGHT? tell me you do.. Yes, it's him.

I laid down the cards of my choice on where they were supposed to be placed and she began reading them. (may kodigo pa si Ms. kc di pa nya maxado kabisado).

WHAT I FELT DURING THE SEPARATION: The cards "said" that I was having a feeling of obsession and holding on to it although we were already separating.. Hmmm, then I thought, was that how I felt or how I acted that time? It's been what, almost two years now? Although we weren't "really together", there was definitely something there. Don't know how we are called, but we are. Then I realized that what the cards meant were right. I was the one who changed minds after deciding we weren't going to be, I called (made him call actually) on the day of the flight to reverse everything that I've done. We're not together because of me. I hoped I could change it, and I was actually hoping he'd accept it, but I was wrong. At the end of it, when he told me he thought it still won't work, I still held on. It's been a while now but I guess whether I accept it or not, I am still holding on, hoping that someday, maybe someday.. It's really like an obsession, he's my drug.

WHAT I AM HOPING FOR THE REUNION: the cards read that I am still waiting, maybe not totally, but something inside is.. maybe it's because I want to know what would be if it did..

WHAT HE IS HOPING FOR THE REUNION: (this is sad for me) he is just giving it all to fate. He's not going to do anything, "if it will happen, then it will"

--> shux, do you guys get what this is telling me? para kaming mga tanga until now, nagiintayan lang pareho, both not wanting to do something about it. We're both slower than the slowest turtle that ever existed in the planet!

WHAT I FEAR ON THE REUNION: i don't quite remember this part. parang sabi niya, I was fearing truth (something like that) I didn't dwell too much on this.. It also said something like ending the chase..

WHAT HE FEARS ON THE REUNION: This I'm sure to remember.. He fears confrontation. It's like not wanting to hear it all out in the open.

--> god, so true! On my part, that is

WHAT THE REUNION WILL BE LIKE: it read na parang it will be not anytime near, maybe sometime later pa.. there will be some changes to our lives (the two of us) and it will be for the better.

OTHERS: there was something there in the reading that said I had to give up something for it to work! OHMIGOSH. It's like it's all coming back again. This happened before, I felt that I had to give up something for it to work. and I did, but still, maybe fate was against us and that was just not the right time for us. Sabi pa dun, maybe I also have problems that hinder it. I was having a "standard" daw and I own up to it. It's true. Ever since, I've had this standard on how things should work out, like everything should be done the right way and if not, it won't be considered. Kumbaga, Out na if not in that range.

Grabe, so sad ng buong reading sakin. It's like the happy ending is too far away from reach. I can't see a clearing in the sunless forest. Still lost. For the longest time, still lost. Am I doing it all wrong? Should I make the move? But how? Why? Isn't it too late now? Para naman akong sira if all of a sudden, nagparamdam ako. Hmm, this is so frustating all over again. I haven't been thinking about it na for the longest time now, but here I go again. It's like going to that unfamiliar place and trying to find ways to go home to that place you feel secured and not frightened.

For those who know this story of mine and him, what do you think?

written by a guy :]

2008-11-26T10:46:00.000-08:00

I read this through Alen's page.. I need to repost this. Please read through and you'll know why you've got to :)

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Guys don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait
till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.

let us pay for you!
don't "feel bad"
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you."

Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my
shirt and boxers, not all dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously. [=))]

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

"Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us".
It's boring, and we don't care. You have friends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"

i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
on the other hand I'm not saying i wouldn't like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, won't wait for him to change. ditch his sorry ASS,he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree

Girls repost this if you think it's cute

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this

*Holding Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

*Cuddling
Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

By 12 am tonight your one true love will realize how much they want you.

Girls repost as: written by a guy :]
Guys post as: Girls need to realize

another HOTTIE.

2008-11-14T19:57:00.000-08:00

I'm also hooked to the new Beverly Hills 90210!

I love the character of Ty, the first boyfriend of Annie when she arrived in Beverly Hills.

Such a hunk compared to her now boyfriend, Ethan.

I'll super go ga-ga over these tv series!

the new CRUSH. Aaron Johnson

2008-11-14T03:22:00.000-08:00

I'm sort of hooked to another series in Velvet. It's called Nearly Famous. It's so nice! I love the story.. I really can't keep up with the schedule on screen so I watch it online. I so love it, especially the emo guy who appears to care for nothing but has something deep in him for a friend. He's terribly cute and has a to-die-for voice (which is my weakness that's why I like him)

AARON JOHNSON playing Owen :)

TOP 3 POINTS WHY I'M HOOKED:

1. terribly cute on Nearly Famous

2. the voice when he sings

3. English accent

LET'S ALL WATCH NEARLY FAMOUS!!!!

Brit's WOMANIZER

2008-10-14T02:33:00.000-07:00

She's back! The ultimate queen B is back!:) Sobrang ganda.. Pati ung guy sa video, bagay. hehehe

One night only.

2008-09-07T07:01:00.000-07:00

Watched Dreamgirls earlier in HBO. That's why that's the title to this.

But we sure do have one night only to spare. Say everything there is to tell and don't turn back. Do what should be done and what you feel NOW than later. Do I make any sense at all?

Listen to yourself and reevaluate. Make a wish and put it in your heart and believe that it will come true. Belief in yourself is important. You may only have one time to make things happen.

A random question that made me think.

2008-08-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

Is it possible to be with someone forever that you love so much but not understand?

Is it even possible, I thought. I don' think so. If you happen to love that somebody, doesn't it come with the package to understand also? How can you love without understanding at all? Grabe naman. Parang ang gulo. Apparently, the friend of my friend is experiencing the exact thing. She loves him daw but she doesn't get him at all. Gulo no?

What is the real equation with love? Is there even an equation to have a forever on the right hand side of the equation? love + understanding = forever? or is there another formula unknown to man? So many questions and I'm guessing there are tons of answers to be given. What does it take to have forever with someone you love. Is love alone not enough?

Hmmm. Parang sex and the city na to! hahaha. Medyo sabog lang, its 3am now from a late birthday dinner with friends..Just remembered the question from a conversation that I had the day before..

Thought for the day: Love's equation

A LONG, LONG DAY.

2008-06-12T16:07:00.000-07:00

..been in the conserve for almost 3 hours now. ano na nagawa ko? finished editting chapter 1 and appendices for the business plan. ang boring no? and who said that bmg was fun??? gosh, "we'd definitely have a talk". It's all work. Of course there's fun too, especially when it's on the bonding and production time. But you really have to earn your way in.
4:30 pa kami magkikita-kita dito. I finished chapter 1 so that we could work on chapter 2 already. so sad, roose and jed are both sick. Panahon na ba ng sakit? haha. pinauwi ko na si Roose, sasamahan pa dapat nya ako gmwa ng paper. baka maggive up na system nun if i didn't. well, waiting for alma and butch nalang. :)
while doing so, opted to watch another episode of one tree hill. I was just about to. When I clicked the play button, it won't! dapat daw firefox. eh wen i downloaded firefox here in the laptop, can't connect naman. blocked ata ng laptop ang firefox. don't know how to configure. oh well, malas! wala rin grey's anatomy malamang.

EARLY MORNING TODAY. I was almost late! Alarmed my phone at 6. I just turned it off, woke up by 7am through the maid, my driver was already outside! parang storm sa bathroom, tapos ako agad maligo and magbihis. Prepared by bag and was thinking that I wouldn't make it in time for my first class since first day today sa mga high school right? i was expecting a HELL TRAFFIC in the area. was on the road by 7:30. nakakain pako ng breakfast =) when we turned left from Bautista, wala naman maxado traffic. It was ok. Not so smooth, but not heavy traffic as i was first expecting. Nakarating ako at exactly 5 mins. before 8am. galing! Buti na lang, or else I'll be performing in front of the class for being late (one of the rules set by the prof at the start of the term, re: being late). QUATECH: hndi tapos ung exercise. hay! hate QM FOR WINDOWS.

had lunch with some of my best girls: Henz, Alma and Jing (eunice missing). ate at the restaurant that used to be Mildred's Place near Agno. There is also a Alma (inasal) and Jing (blue marlin) were all masarap! YUM! Especially mine, sisig. Hindi pa xa masyado expensive. Contented and with a full tummy.

GREEN AND WHITE. Went to the booth of Green and White and we signed up already. id105 is due for yearbook na. parang game. Ang layo pa ng graduation! I'm not yet even halfway the whole practicum program yet and then parang I'm assuming na we're graduating na. Even si Jing na mas matagal pa samin since Accounting major (*geek) siya. hahaha. so expensive. IRRITATINGLY EXPENSIVE. have to lose weight til next month!=for pictures.

30 mins. na lang and they're here!:)

2 NIGHTS OF DAY.

2008-06-11T23:05:00.000-07:00

Ang tagal matapos magload ng grey's anatomy. hmmmph

ang tagal. tick tock tick tock...

MONDAY. 2 nights of day. Bakit nga ba? Have a very hateful book review due a while ago so working on it is a must especially for the last two days. the other night, page 25 palang ako! working on the business plan the whole day ksi with the whole group. goal for the night: 70 pages. 2am and I'm right on track. Did a little homework after.. so bottomline, I WAS UP.
TUESDAY. Last night, have to finish everything na. finish the next 50-60 pages of reading and then do the writing naman. writing starting at midnight na.. I thought hanggang mga 2am lang. but no, I finished the paper by 430am. bottomline: I WAS UP AGAIN. am i a zombie or something! the walls of LS building prohibits me from sleep, one thing i love most yet i get so slightly. up by 8am again. still have no homework in QUATECH. how will i finish? time is against me.

color your day.

2008-06-08T16:34:00.000-07:00

June 5 - tiring yet fun thursday! went to meet with MASC for our business plan, success naman although hindi natapos. will finish tom. got home so late! around 10 in the evening. took the taxi and I hated it! grabe kung pumatak ung metro niya ah! although walang traffic, umabot parin akong 100! ano nga ba no. nung pag magrereport?? nagattempt pang makipagkwentuhan! xmpre no answer me. got home safe and turned on my pc. chatted with achi nin and later on with dax. 12 midnight palang sumusuko na si dax sa sleepyness! sobrang funny! i mean the whole conversation - my line alway: "don't look at the cam coz I'll laugh!" as in, he is funny when in the cam. the face is. hahaha.. made my day colorful. dapat kasi asar ako pero nawala na rin.

June 6 - went to the movies with friends Henzel and Jing along with my sister. We wanted different films to watch! Ended up watching Sex and the City. (again) haha. Jing and I watched this a week ago. Oh well, Henz and Stella didn't watch it yet anyway. And since I love the movie, watching it twice was out of the question. wait for me manhattan!, I'll come for you and shop both LABELS and love :)

Today is Sunday and as usual, sunday is the most boring day of all my weeks. I should be reading for a book review due on wednesday but here I am. I feel good though since I was able to save this page! REBORN! hahaha. but then again, this page is still under construction. watching the buzz now.. condolence to the family of Rudy Fernandez. Just pray and soon, your lives will again be colorful.

First week of my 4th year.

2008-06-01T20:27:00.000-07:00

Seniority comes a long way. I'm a senior! My gosh, had it been that long already? Anyway, my first week in becoming a full pledged cbe student has been so harassing. I'm already full of deadlines. These are for subjects starring: humabeh and entres2! Can they be so demanding? Grabe.

Had something fun this week though: SEX AND THE CITY! I watched the movie last friday with my all time movie buddy--Jing. I love the movie. I'm going to watch sex and the city from the first season till the sixth again!. hahaha.. Also had my hair cut that day too -- two inches off my head. Should i straighten or curl it? what do you think? Straight siguro? Also has manicure and pedicure: RED is love. hahaha.. wondering when i did this? had three hours last friday after the FAST05 meeting until Jing would be out from her modular classes. so there, i went to the salon. :) so stress-releasing. would definitely go back to pamper myself in the next weeks.

In school, mondays and wednesdays have been todo tiring. i have class till 7:30 in the evening. but my tuesdays and thursdays are only in the morning. cbe is actually very tiring. ISE was too but in different extents and different ways. I miss ISE. I miss miguel building. ls building is so boring. no familiar faces yet.. i always love the atmosphere in miguel..

let's see what's going to happen till the end of this term.. or should i say the end of my cbe years. :)

blast of thoughts.

2007-11-27T15:45:00.000-08:00

BLAST OF THOUGHTS.

There are a lot of things in my mind right now.. I really miss blogging! But, I can't seem to have gathered my thoughts in place yet. Ang dami kasing nangyayari ngayon eh (in all aspects: school, home, heart..etc.) there is no clear path yet.. il get back to putting in here everything when i learn how.. alright??

Goal: I must write something in here before new year.. I miss blogging!!!

the newest rivermaya.

2007-10-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

the newest rivermaya.

tonight is the "ultimate night" for the bagong liwanag contest. i'm really going for jayson. he's cute yes, but i also like him better than hans for rivermaya.. hehehehehe. ang galing! he won! sobrang kinilabutan pko nung inannounce na na xa ung winner and the rivermaya introduced themselves one by one, kasali na xa ngayon. ahhahaha.. he is now one of the rivermaya. galing. im not actually a fan of rivermaya, now's gonna be the start i guess. looking forward for their new singles, albums, concerts.. :) buti nlng jona messaged me to watch, if he didn't, id probably forget and not watch. i dont watch na kc since his last episode.

again, congratulations JAYSON!

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others.

gosh, just got done with thesis and there's another one i have to do = study intl law midterms.. hay! i have one day to do this thing I HATE MOST = memorizing LAW stuff. im really not up for this right now, i just feel so down and tamad to study. probably because we're the only ones with school until now. studying during halloween?! hah!!

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others padin.

i miss someone. hmmm, wla lang. i just miss someone. just realized it today actually. i always say i miss that someone but its just today that i really felt it. hah! that's the last of the emo stuff i'll shed for today. enough already. il close this up na, im watching this "scary" film daw in abs-cbn, SIX ata ang title. au revoir mes amis!

chit chat.

2007-10-27T23:56:00.000-07:00

CHIT CHAT.

favorite line from Grey's Anatomy S4 ep.4:

"i want to marry you..
i want to have kids with you..
i want to settle down and grow old with you..
i want to die when I'm 110 years old with you..
i don't want 48 uninterrupted hours..
i want a lifetime.."
- Derrick Sheperd to Meredith Grey

awww.. so chessy, but when it's mcdreamy who will say it?? hands down!! i just downloaded the 4th episode of the latest season of grey's anatomy this morning and i watched it as soon as it got complete.. such a cliche i must say. one wants to settle down and he is so ready but she isn't. what would happen then? what if there's another party that would come in between? cliches are what i hate 2nd to not getting what i want, but nothing to do right? it's part of this life..

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Oct. 24 -- cram time!

oct.25 is the day i've been fearing for this whole week! it's intl. law midterms.. although part 1 lang tom, it was so hard considering its scope. i didnt get proper sleep that night (as in). so little time, so many to memorize and understand. good thing i had all my notes in order and i already started before that day. i couldnt even cut my french and envscan classes for intllaw since they're both as important. well, it's done, now, it's time to cram for tues (part2 of exam).. not only that, i have to cram our thesis paper tom!!! good luck to us!

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Oct. 26 -- i have a date

hmmm, nothing to chat about it. it was ok. dinner and talk. hehehe

misc..

after, the night at home was hilarious! i have to send a package to a cousin's whose going home to the province this moring and i cant contact any of the drivers. i texted everybody and tried calling. no use. i ended up alarming at 4:30 in the morning to make sure the driver got the message and get the package since my cousin was to leave 5am to the airport. hilarious evening i swear! the wireless phone was beside my pillow and so is my cellphone.. hahaha. it was such a relief that the package was sent or else im dead. it contains Ate's, Kuys j's, and vasco's ticket coming here..

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Oct. 27 -- cleanliness

i dont know what's up with me today, instead of sticking my head to do thesis, i didn't! so bad of me.. instead, i worked on the house for making sure that they start the "general cleaning" since ate and the rest are coming home na. ow, i also organized the food stocks in the kitchen and inventory.. hay, boring ng week na to sobra! and now, pbb just ended and i cant find anything else to do but this.. i ain't sleepy sobra! i dont know why i took coffee.. so bad of me..

It's flooding GREEN.

2007-09-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

IT'S FLOODING GREEN.

uaap season 70

UAAP Weather Report

Katipunan is flooded tonight causing traffic all over QC. Weather authorities say that this was caused by a phenomenon called "el buenas berdes" which is believed to have been triggered by the flooding of bitter tears from ATENEO students after losing to the DE LA SALLE GREEN ARCHERS at the UAAP beasketball game. A warning has been issued to the public to avoid the Katipunan area as forecasters predict that the condition will continue until the next UAAP season. ... Salamat! ooops... TY (Tang) pala!

--brought to you all by Jefferson Reyes

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Sept. 30, 2007 - the most awaited day for the students of both DLSU-M and ADMU specifically because we would meet again in the court of Araneta Colliseum. It will be a make or break for both universities for whoever wins will go face to face with UE for the championships..

who do you think won? can i just say it?? XMPRE KAMI! DLSU won! 65-60 ang final scores.. sobrang daming nangyari sa big dome and we couldn't even believe it! the game was SUPER! we were leading by either a 9 or 7 points! the Green Archers are back in the game. Even with a year suspension, DLSU didn't lose the moves, the legacy.

so for tonight until the glory has been taken away, WE ARE THE WINNERS! in the game and in the rankings :)

**my deepest apologies if I have offended anyone..

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on RIVERMAYA: Bagong Liwanag Ep. 3

..shux! First time kong manood nitong Bagong Liwanag thingy ng Rivermaya specifically because a friend of mine is one of the contestants -- Jona Paculan. Ang galing! When he started singing, I was just staring at the screen not realizing that it was him! hahaha.. I was so bewildered. :) I'm now a fan of him. Consider me no. 5! xmpre may family pa xa noh. hahaha.. he sang "anghel" and for me, he sounded good. and bagay xa sa tv... hahaha.. pero unfortunately he got out na on this third episode.. he isn't fit lng siguro tlga for rock stuff.. but that's alright! he is what he is.. and im proud of him! fan nako..

Rivermaya: Bagong Liwanag

2007-09-29T20:21:00.000-07:00

RIVERMAYA: Bagong Liwanag

shux, i didnt know that a friend of mine is part of the Bagong Liwanag thing of Rivermaya. well, come on friends, let's support any way we can! watch alright? Studio 23 Sundays 9:15pm

remember the name: JONA PACULAN

he's real good i swear!

http://www.mypad.net/bagongliwanag/

missed blogging.

2007-09-07T13:45:00.000-07:00

passers.
uh-huh uh-huh.
her chaotic desk.

hmm. i so missed my blog.. i missed typing everything down. well, im back and i hope i do continue this.

i just turned 20 and i can say that i dont feel much of a change as there is. well, i want change. i want all to change actually.. have no idea yet wat to put in here. might as well share these pictures with henzy taken sept4 in their house.. (she was testing the cam of my fone) wat we did? well nothing much actually.. boys stuff, school stuff, the usual. something new in the conversation: kimi. he's alright but... i cant even find the words.. well, we could be friends. just friends.

PAIN kills.

2007-05-02T01:11:00.000-07:00

i want to run, run far far away. as far as i could. my mind's a roller coaster and i can't help but think that now, I'm in that phase of my life again, a phase I never intended to go through once more. Last year, I lost one important person in my life, probably the most important. I've made it through and I thought everything's going to be fine but now, I'm feeling that pain again. That same pain that I felt when we lost her. I wish I could just type it all down here which would make me feel more relaxed, to be able to breathe a little bit, but no. I just couldn't.

Let's just put it this way. It's just so soon and even if she's been gone for quite some time, I still won't understand. Fine, she's gone and there's nothing we can do about it but WE ARE still here and life goes on without her. It's just so hard to let go of the most important thing to you and replace it with something else just to feel a sense of completeness or even just an excuse to feel happy. I know this entry seems really weird. As I said, I wish I could just type everything down but I know I should not.

Right now, I just feel so alone and I feel pain. The sooner it gets solved the better, or else, this pain is gonna drive me nowhere. I want to stop crying, I want this to end, I want everything to be normal. Sooner or later, things might happen and I'm afraid. I'm so afraid...........

i love you.

2007-03-29T23:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 56th BIRTHDAY AUNTIE!!

gawd do i miss you so much! but you know what, for the first time, i didn't cry. dati kc, pag may special occassion since her death, id cry. but not today.. we were in heritage til 8pm. picnic na kami. the family were there and we were smiling and laughing.. time could really heal wounds i guess.. but it wont change the fact that we miss her.. happy birthday again. mwah mwah mwah.. i love you.

MCDONALDS now in dumaguete.

2007-03-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

We have finally opened McDonalds in Dumaguete, Negros Oriental. It's the first by the way. umuwi akong province nung saturday just for the opening, sobrang excited ako. i was with ate's in-laws sa flight.. laughtrip sobra: with tito jerry.. ahahaha.. VIP night that night. ung mga tao gusto na pumasok eh hindi pa pwede, the next day pa ung official selling day.. fireworks came!!! tumigil ata ang buhay ng dumaguete during those minutes.. hahaha.. ganda!

up to now, it's so doing better than well! hahaha... OA na ba??? it's true. sobrang pila!!! haha... went back here in Manila ng Monday. may pasok naman noh!! hahaha..

do you know HOW TO TOUCH A GIRL?? -- JOJO

2007-03-17T15:37:00.000-07:00

I think I could like you I already do

feelings can grow but they can go away too

you're takin my hand lookin into my eyes

don't be in a rush to get me tonight

feel somethin happenin could this be a spark?

to satisfy me baby gotta satisfy my heart

do you know how to touch a girl?

if you want me so much first I have to know

are you thoughtful and kind? do you care what's on my mind?

or am I just for show? you'll go far in this world

if you know how to touch a girl

do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you but I keep holding back

cause I can't seem to tell if you're fiction or fact

show me you can laugh show me you can cry

show me who you really are deep down inside

do you feel somethin happenin? could this be for real?

I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal

do you know how to touch a girl?

if you want me so much first I have to know

are you thoughtful and kind? do you care what's on my mind?

or am I just for show? you'll go far in this world

if you know how to touch a girl

bring me some flowers conversation for hours

to see if we really connect and baby if we do ooh

i'll be givin all my love to you ohh

gawd, am i into this song!! sobrang ganda.. right? just the way and just what we really want to tell the guys right?? hehehe.. treat us with respect and we'll give our love just like that..

` MIDTERM week: --> suicide!

2007-02-21T17:30:00.000-08:00

FEB.19 -- gosh, first day of midterm week today.. it's officially monday and i was doomed.. EUPOGOV exam today ni sir baqs.. gawd, i was so stressed but then it's ok.. stress is nothing diba? keep smiling, keep shining. what the --?! wat am i saying??? i should pass that test.. i can't afford a failed midterm test kay baqs. knowing his tests, one should really, really prepare.. i should know right? i already have 4 major subjects with him.. hindi na nadala talaga. for the record, not my fault.. the test was hard as usual.. considering the page nos. that we all forgot, some lang pala..i hope!!!! hindi man lang lumabas ung mga akala naming lalabas! no elections, presidents! kahit man lang si de gaulle.. huhuhuhuhuhuhu.. cry cry cry... first day palang to ah.. wala na akong ibang naaral since naubos lahat ng eupogov ung buong weekend.. quincy!!!!!!! mon dieu!

FEB.20 -- mas malala tong araw na to.. xmpre tired na from yesterday and all the puyat from the past days.. 2 pa exams today.. euroeco and inteorg.. same procedure.. page nos. ulit.. and hulaan sa euroeco. huhuhuhu.. ang labo labo ng buhay ko sa I.S. nagdedeteriorate na ata mga skills ko since nagmajors.. nagbabasa nlng ako ng nagbabasa.. nothing else.. so tired.

FEB.21 -- FRENCH2 midterm exam today.. naku naman talga.. slept at 3am last night for french.. buti nlng nandito si ate.. helped me study french last night.. nakakatawa kaming pakinggan na naguusap in french.. the test was alright.. not wat i expected actually. knowing sir f, mahihirapan at maguguluhan kami but today, hindi.. ang nahirapan ako was ung part na we have to tell ung ideal meals namin in french.. mahirap kc ung.. i wont explain nlng why basta french is so complicated pagdating sa grammar. swear, sobrang dali na nga english. HS students: galingan niyo na, madali na i.100 ung english classes niyo.. hahhaaha..

..now, still feb.21. a cinq heures et demie de apres-midi(at 5:30 pm) -- still pressured. euroeco exam part 2 tom... hahha.. then accounting midterms exam pa on saturday.. thank god my stat exam is moved on wed. instead of friday eh... bawas sa suicide.. hahha

out na muna ako.. time to do actpaco hw's bago pa magpatong.patong.. AU REVOIR MES AMIS!

`MUSIC AND LYRICS to my heart

2007-02-14T19:46:00.000-08:00

today is officially valentines day.. went to see a movie with a friend... MUSIC AND LYRICS! gawd to i love it so much.. i have a new favorite song: WAY BACK INTO LOVE.. im also officially in love again with hugh grant! hahaha.. although he is of age, it doesnt matter.. i adore him so much in this movie..

you should all watch this with whoever you want to.. with friends or bf or fam.. kahit sino.. basta watch it.. you'd never go wrong! love found through music.. actually, i like it so much coz music's such a big part of me and love being found through music is something that will always make me and my heart leap.. :D

happy valentines everyone! i love you.

happy valentines day!

2007-02-14T00:24:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY everyone!

let's give love and let love move us this time of season.. enjoy!

I LOVE YOU.

**steph madamba..

happy 18th birthday ANGEL

2007-02-03T14:07:00.000-08:00

shux, 18 na rin sa wakas si angel.. parang baby sa amin.. younger than us kasi.. got home yesterday feeling so tired.. pano ba naman, sobrang haba ng program.. buti nlng malapit lng sa bahay ang debut.. renaissance lng so ang lapit lng from my place.. 12+ na, hindi pa rin tapos.. 11 something na nga kaming mga treasures nakapagspeech eh.. haha.. sarap ng food by the way! appetizer palang, kumain na kami sobra nila dia and henz! no more space for half the main course and the dessert! haha.. the ballers ditched us! also enchong.. puti pa si drew.. haha.. pictures galore of course. never na mawawala.. last night made me miss the block even more.. ever since hindi na kami magkakasama ng mga classes, gatherings for occassions like last night is really something we look forward to. not for any other reason but simply because we want to get together again.. being a block has it's good and bad sides din kasi.. haha.. la lang, I MISS YOU LC24!..

i also loved that night kc nakapagusap kami ulit ni jenn (my partner in crime).. dami ko na utang sa kanya na kwento pero last night, i gave my ears to her.. she needs it more than i do.. jenn, thanks for trusting me and confiding in me.. now is really tough but we'll get through it.. hmm, nu paba?? nagkayayaan pang maggreenbelt afterwards, haha.. party na to.. pero dami na tao sa temple eh.. uwian nlng.. 1 na rin in the morning eh..

hmm, this entry isn't really something spectacular but i just simply missed writing in here.. i promise to update this as often as i could..

again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL!..

other pics in here: http://steph01memyslfndi.multiply.com

princess hours - korean drama series

2007-02-01T15:11:00.000-08:00

im all out of words for this entry.. i love it!!!... here's a review taken from kuan yee han's blog..

Princess Hours or more commonly known as Goong (2006) is a romantic korean drama. Story evolves around the current Crown Prince of the Korean royal family (This is just a fiction. Korea is no longer ruled by kings). The story started off with a deal made by the previous emperor and his good friend that their grandchildren will get married to each other. At that time, the royal grandchild intended was Yul but when Yul’s dad (Crown Prince at that time) died in an accident, then Shin (Joo Ji Hoon), Yul’s cousin, took over as the Crown Prince after the emperor passed away.

But Shin has someone whom he liked (Hyo Rin) and decided to propose to her. Shin was rejected so he agreed to take up the arranged marriage with Chae-kyung (Yoon Eun Hye). However, he still hangs around with Hyo Rin quite often. Meanwhile, Yul who just came back from overseas, fell in love with Chae-kyung. As both Shin and Chae-kyung are now the Crown Prince and Princess of Korea, their quite intimate relations with Hyo Rin and Yul respectively creates rumours after rumours, which jeopardise the status of the royal family.

After living with Chae-kyung for long, Shin began to like her. But will he be too late to prevent Yul from taking her? At the end of this drama, there was a little unexpected twist but still an acceptable one. Anyway, Princess Hours 2 is in the making.

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i love the ost of this.. especially 'perhaps love'.. comments on the story on the previous entry..

pictures!!!

.addiction to series.

2007-01-29T14:19:00.000-08:00

it was not long ago when i started to get hooked up to these television series.. i usually didn't have much passion or even likeness for such stuff but now, my gawd! i dont even care anymore if i studied or not.. i get so hooked up that i can't put a stop to my dvd player to place the next episode there is.. mygawd..

it started with one tree hill last november.. sobrang ganda. i bought dvd of it and also grey's anatomy but i started with one tree hill first.. sobrang ganda.. na kahit na season 3 palang sa pinas, season 4 nako.. plus, im downloading lang the season 4 since the dvd that i have is until season 3 palang.. ohgosh.. news flash: iv waited for almost a month now just for episode 11 be shown in the states.. it aired the other day.. so im downloading it later.. hopefully meron na sa limewire..

next was grey's anatomy! ang ganda rn! i cant believe it.. how can this be so true?! i love every episode... kind of makes me want to reconsider what im currently taking! haha.. jowk.. well, as for all of you to know, i used to want to be a doctor.. well, i still do but i prefered to take euro studies and bmg.. i wasnt that confident of being a doctor (surgeon).. basta eun.. i even have sleepless nights just to watch.. im also downloading season 3 since hanggang season 2 lang ung dvd..

kala niyo tapos nako jan!??? hindi pa oy! then i got hooked up to princess hours. it started with the everyday show of it in abscbn.. i couldn't stand waiting for it everynight for just 30 minutes of it airing.. so i decided to buy dvd.. but then i didn't yet....hindi na kinaya ng puso ko! haha.. youtube is my savior! i finished watching the full 24 episodes (24 hours) through the net!.. hahaha.. iyak iyak.. cry cry cry parang duck ika nga ni greennie...hindi parin kinaya, sa sobrang ganda, i watched it again and again (dvd na naman).. 3 times in a row! i already know it by heart..

after that, itong friend ko na si jing, pinahiram ako ng full house.. shet, ang ganda rin!.. watched it twice then i watched sweet 18.. lalong maganda! i cant help it already.. im so addicted! watched it twice.. and may i stress out that i watch it during the weekdays!! in only a span of weeks.. 3 weeks lng ata.. hahahaha..

..few last words! ang sarap ng feeling! adik nko.. i aint studying na at all! i am pa naman pero in school nlng kc all my time at home are dedicated in the series.. hahaha.. loving and hating it.. hahaha.. GO KOREA!..

.. naiinspire na nga ako eh.. parang i also want to get married now.. parang sa series.. get married without love and eventually, it will just happen.. what a challenge.. but then again, stick to reality, i aint getting married until im 29.. haha.. kung may divorce lng eh.. haha.. jowk.. i love you shin goon..and hyuk joon! i mean, why be stressed with problems with your boyfriend and when you get married, there you realize it's not for you?? whereas when you get married first and you try all that you can to make it work and later realize that you have fallen.. parang ang ganda.. i also want!

dont be selfish with your pain

2007-01-10T14:05:00.000-08:00

hmmm, wat can i say, i had a new thought today.. im with my friends and suddenly, i heard one say it: dont be selfish with your pain.. damn true isn't it? people always say that their in pain or that they just have a lot of problems to deal with.. dont you ever realize that each and every one has the same exact dialogue?! haha.. so vague though.. but it's true..

fine, problems will always be around but dont think they are more than what others can handle.. let's respect each other.. fine, you're in pain.. i am too.. for reasons we know.. but hopefully, this pain that we are feeling will be taken away by time, by wishing hoping and prayers..

dont act as if you're the only one hurt cause you've done a lot of hurting also.. la lang, till here muna.. these are just thoughts by the way.. don't relate to somebody.. mahirap na ulit..

again, for lovers out there, for all people out there, pain and hurt are facts of life. we can't deny it and we simply can't escape it, but please, DONT BE SELFISH WITH YOUR PAIN..

~ WHAT MOST GUYS WONT DO

2007-01-08T20:17:00.000-08:00

got this from lin.. la lang.. kinda true isn't it? so uhmm, im gonna post it up..

every girl dreams that one day, she will find a guy that does these things for her. Even the smallest action can have THE BIGGEST impact in someone's life.

GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN.

LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.

KISS HER IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS.

TRUST HER OVER EVERYONE ELSE.

LOOK HER IN THE EYE WHEN YOU TALK TO HER.

LET HER MESS WITH YOUR HAIR.

MESS WITH HER HAIR.

JUST WALK AROUND WITH HER.

FORGIVE HER FOR HER MISTAKES.

LOOK AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE ONLY GIRL YOU SEE.

TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS STOP.

HOLD HER HAND EVEN WHEN YOU ARE AROUND YOUR FRIENDS.

WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT YOU, TELL HER YOU LOVE HER.

LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN YOUR ARMS.

GER HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.

TEASE HER AND LET HER TEASE YOU BACK.

STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHE'S SICK.

WATCH HER FAVORITE MOVIE WITH HER.

KISS HER FOREHEAD.

GIVE HER THE WORLD.

WRITE HER LETTERS.

LET HER WEAR YOUR CLOTHES.

WHEN SHE'S SAD, HANG OUT WITH HER.

LET HER KNOW SHE'S IMPORTANT.

LET HER TAKE ALL THE PHOTOS OF YOU SHE WANTS.

KISS HER IN THE RAIN.

CALL HER EVERY NIGHT.

AND WHEN YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH HER, TELL HER, FIGHT FOR HER.

AND WHEN YOU DO TELL HER. LOVE HER LIKE YOU NEVER LOVED BEFORE.

ok fine im sort of lying! it's not just some kinda true.. it really is! hahahaha... thanks to lin!

in hymn kodak moments

2007-01-08T01:05:00.000-08:00

gawd do i love you people! hahaha.. just got home from starbucks valero.. THEY picked me up.. sobrang instant talaga. when i read the text that they are going to my place na kanina around 10pm, parang magic, doorbell agad. they were already outside! hahahaha.. grabe talaga kayo.. hahahaha.. so bihis ng mabilis, grabbed a bag, and without 5 minutes, we were out! haha.. although first day ng class tom (ahem, later pala), i wouldn't even dare to miss this night out with them.. why? jumpi's leaving na eh.. happy trip PRE!

what happened? la naman maxado.. a night full of laughter, and kodak moments! labasan na ng fones and cam. thank god i brought my cam! ang lakas ng mga trip ah.. sa sobrang ingay, nilapitan na kami ni manong guard, may nagreport na samin! hahaha.a.. sabi nga ni maan: "para kaming hindi nagkikita araw-araw".. hindi nga naman.. once a week at least! pero a day with in hymn is like a reunion ng mga taong minsan lng magkita (DAW!)..

hindi pa nakontento, may nagconcert/play samin! hulaan sino!!!!

uwian time na pero wala parin, hanggang labas, picture! special thanks to the manong driver of the delivery truck.. ayaw maghiwalay ng in hymn! as always.. parang gustong isang sasakyan lang kami lahat at maghatiran ng magkakasama.. no other beats in hymn.. in talent, in bonding, in everything.. naks!

last: HAPPY TRIP JUMPI! SEE YOU AGAIN SOON.. ano ba masasabi ko sayo?? hmmm, dont forget to upload pictures and to chat! updates marami.. thanks sa pasalubong, sa gift, sa moments..again! tc

so, night folks, have to sleep, first day of skul in a couple of hours.. bon nuit!

in hymn in kopiroti

2006-12-30T09:06:00.000-08:00

dec29'06: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIBOY!

hmmm, after biboy's birthday party in jollibee makati ave, we still wanted to go out and so we did! we wanted coffee so instead of the usual starbucks, we went all the way to katipunan.. KOPIROTI here we are! sarap ng iced kopi and the homemade roti.. also the tea and the french toast.. hindi pa nakuntento, bought barbeque sa 'countryside'.. we went out of the place to eat barbeque and stand there for more than an hour.. haha.. lakas ng trip.. by the way, nahigad si jon! ooooh, kati! ano pa ba nangyari, ow! napaiyak ko si april! gosh.. masahe night din pala un..

saya! uhmm, un na, uwian na.. at nagkayayaan magmovie.. so movie later with sila april.. KASAL, KASALI KASALO here we come!

merry christmas! ho.ho.ho.

2006-12-24T11:25:00.000-08:00

whoooohooo.. christmas has come! actually, later tonight pa.. can't wait..

before anybody else go crazy tonight, bati nako..

MERRY CHRISTMAS! HO.HO.HO.

henzy's 18th.spotlight.

2006-12-23T01:02:00.000-08:00

before all the pics get uploaded, again, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BUDDY, HENZEL GAPAY.. haha.. xmpre give emphasis.. pano ba yan, legal ka na rin sa wakas. mygawd, i feel so old tuloy.. tonight was full of smiles.. parang reunion.. reunion ng mga taga taro! hahaha.. walang kamatayang picture of course.. and reunion namin nila lin and tres.. haha.. missed you guys.. sarap ng food by the way.. il be posting some of the pics later on. but all of the pics have already been uploaded in my multiply account. check out the link later in linksters.

nakilala ko na rin ang mga "the boys".. ika nga ni henzel: stick to everyone. mahirap mag stick to one kapag doubtful naman ang partner kaya mabuti pang mag stick to everyone. lahat masaya! gawin ko kaya no? haha.. good thought by the way. il think about it.. most of the time, stick to one ako no.. hindi ko naman pinagsasabay.. hmmm. about henzel nga pala to.. xa muna bago me..

just got home from her party in spotlight pasong tamo... it was fun.. it was a duo debut celebration for gia and henzel. magpinsan na nga, sabay pang pinanganak.. hahaha.. galing no? tonight is a bling night and true enough, some really had the bling going around.. the rest, casual. si henzel kc, ang pinagsabi, casual.. pero xmpre porma kami noh! hindi papahuli.. hahaha... 18 candles ako by the way.. twice nagsalita kc proxy narin ako for dia.. she left early.. maraming party ung bakla eh.. lahat ata ng pics throughout the 18 candles, andun kami ni lin, una kc kami eh.. haha.. galing ni henz tlga.. hahaha.. buti nlng maganda ako tonight.. xmpre, baka may makilala akong gwapo eh.. should never miss the chance diba? hahaha..

im sort of sleepy na, il post na some of the pics.. the rest, look into my multiply: http://steph01memyslfndi.multiply.com

enjoy!

welcome home jumpi

2006-12-21T23:29:00.000-08:00

haha.. before i end things up for the night.. i almost forgot!

welcome home jumpi! god did i miss you man! i really didn't expect it.. i was so happy, excited, gulat when i saw this morning... tatahitahimik ka pa kanina ah! haha..

really happy your home for christmas.. so i guess il be seeing you in in hymn always.. haha.. starbucks pa pala tayo.. inuubos ang stickers! :D

.mixed emotions.har

2006-12-21T23:24:00.000-08:00

have mixed emotions today. actually, for most of the day, i was actually thinking it's such a beautiful day but wat the hell?! turned out just the same at the end. wala parin palang nag.bago. it was all just an act. or was it? eto na naman ako, pag nabasa niya, unfair na naman ako or i didn't understand.. hmm. well, maybe it was wasn't but still, it didn't change a thing. we still ain't fine. im counting days and yes, im still counting them..

what do i have to do to put things back where they were in the first place anyway? i never thought this could happen..

well, let's start with the 'most part of the day that's happy'. har. i saw him again after two long weeks.. i didnt act so bitchy ok.. i approached and said hi. we even sat together and we were fine the whole day. then the 'not so happy part of the day'.. i actually thought this was the beginning but who would have thought that by getting out of that door would bring it back to weirdness and speechless time.. maybe if i went to the concert, it would have been different.. sori naman.. nagkagulo sa bahay. god make me forget his no. please... erased nga fonebuk, no difference since i know it by heart.. hate it. then again, let's make room for some mistakes.. baka pagod or la time to look at fone.. who am i kidding?! oh yes, just me.

im beginning to be hopeless.. i only have like 1 percent left in my system. going back was a decision i made because of him, for him and for myself. but now, im thinking if what i did was right? for the both of us.. it's obviously not doing me any good... grades and falling apart, losing my mind, and heart, lost a friend, lost the self i once had for 6 years.... as for him, i know he's bothered all the time. so obvious naman no.

..partly happy partly angry partly sad partly weird... hay.. can't even describe my life right now. hope this christmas would give me something i want, need.. something for me..

vacation at last

2006-12-19T18:49:00.000-08:00

finally! term 2 is finally over.. i safely got through the finals week. haha.. im so happy.. got my course cards today.. felt so relieved! i passed all my majors although they were not as high but i dont care anymore. im just so happy i passed! haha.. i was kinda worried coz for the past few weeks, i havent been my normal self and studies got so affected.. buti nlng hindi naman masyado. nakabawi ng konti sa final exams.. haha.. wla lang, im just so happy.. nothing to worry about.. nakapagbayad nako for next term so nothing to think about now.. thank god!

now, the best thing to think about is how to spend this vacation! haha.. actually, i have some good things in mind.. know wat they are? haha.. sleep!!!!!!! now's the chance! i love it!.. so tamad to make gimmick.. sleep sobra.. enjoy the break friends

merry christmas!
joyeaux noel mon ami!

hmm, nice reading eh? what exactly is AUTHENTIC LOVE?

2006-12-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

Authentic love is chosing your partner exactly as he is; it is putting your energy behind your choice and causing the relationship to be magical, rather than searching for reasons why it can't work. Love is supporting your partner in her choices, urging her to fulfill her heart's desires and go for all of her dreams.

Authentic love is honoring your partner's truth and wanting the very best for him. It is not controllng or possessing but rather respecting and trusting his unique path in life. Love is the courage to tell the truth especially when you believe it is unspeakable.

Authentic love means knowing your boundaries and respecting those of your partner; it means reaching out when you don't want to, communicating rather than assuming, and asking questions rather than jumping to conclusions. Authentic love means working things out rather than fighting, fighting rather than leaving, and staying through the misunderstandings, hurt feelings, and disappointments, knowing that through commitment all can be healed. It means staying when you want to give up, and honoring your commitment to work things out with the one you have chosen.

Authentic love means focusing on what you appreciate and why you are grateful. It means focusing attention on your partner and letting her know each day how much you care. It means treasuring your beloved and never taking her for granted.

Authentic love means living without judgments to create the safety to tell your truths. It means living each day with your partner as if it were your last. It is the willingness to be yourself and live in harmony with each other.

What does an authentic relationship look like? It looks and feels real. It thrives on honesty and shimmers with truth. An authentic relationship flexes and bends with the fluctuating needs and changes of each partner and gracefully weathers hardships. Both partners are committed to the growth and evolution of both individuals in their respective life paths. Much like the diamond used symbolically to represent the bond of matrimony, an authentic relationship sparkles with brilliance and light while maintaining a solid and enduring core. It is the context in which true love was meant to exist.

Of course, this is the ideal. The real fun ----- and opportunity --- lies in reaching for such a vision.

well, there it goes. mejo nabbore nako sa walang ginagawa kaya i tried to look for something up to read. i found this one in ate's cabinet.. thanks to her.. il be reading something worthwhile with sense... hay! maiinlove nlng ako sa libro. baka ung libro hindi ako sasaktan.. out nako ulit.. il read this!!..

PDA congrats to all scholars!

2006-12-17T03:31:00.000-08:00

you all did one hell of a job! congratulations to the pinoy dream academy honor list of 6. galing niyo kagabi ah! haha.. most especially si idol na si yeng constantino! congratulations girl! la ako masabi.. finally makakasama mo na si rj! wooshoo.. hehee.. kilig na naman ako.. at least they get to be happy after all.. hahaha..

congratulations once again!

wishes and regrets.

2006-12-16T15:33:00.000-08:00

i know it's wrong. or is it? you make me feel like what im feeling and or doing is wrong. is it so bad to wish for things to be back to normal again? is that too much to ask for. you always say that you just want understanding. and i do kahit malabo. i dont want to be part of that circle of people who dont understand you but why do always push me away? everytime we come that close, you put a wall in front of me. i know i may have done that to you too but hey, we were kids then! we were afraid of doing all the wrong things. i was afraid of hurting you more. but now, we were sure of our feeling didn't we? but now, it seems all complicated. nothing's complicated naman talaga eh. we just make them that way. it's all so simple. we love each other or not. i know that we do. you told me that you do, and i told you the same thing pero actions are really the opposite nowadays no? hay!

im not gonna wish for anything more this christmas. i just want normacy in our lives. if it can't be the two of us then so be it but not like this. it's killing me and i know nahihirapan ka. pareho lng tayo. but you know what's different? me wanting us to be friends at least because you wanted to and here you are wanting to be friends but can't have enough guts to even smile at me. you can't even look at me in the eye. what are you so afraid about? im here to stay and i aint gong anywhere.

i miss you so much do you know that? i miss the times you were there at all times. the times that i could always run to you. the times that you were the guy i dreamt about and been thinking about. i miss the times when i was the only one. when i felt important to you. i miss the smiles, your voice, your embrace, your kiss. i miss everything about you. even the things i hate about you.. everything.

the least you could do is act normal in front of them. shut me out as long as you want if that will make you happy but never in front of them. hindi sila dpat nadadamay satin. gulo natin to, not the whole group. i know you've been going through a lot. but if so, if you love me like the way your saying, then i should be beside you and i will help. problems are just problems we can solve, i would solve with you. but never alone.

face it, im back and im here to stay. i ain't leaving again. never again because of you. kahit mahal kita.. when i left back then, i realized that leaving for space is never going to be good reason and will not do anything good for anyone. it will never do good. running away wont solve a thing. i hope you realize that too.. dont wait until i feel nothing anymore and be a different person.. i miss you.. you not being the guy but you being the friend... whatever a friend may mean..

and when the time comes that you do, il be here.. always and forever..

my ideal guy.. is..

2006-12-14T23:41:00.000-08:00

shuxx, sori for the entries.. puro surveys.. yeah i know.. very senseless..
just cant have the right mind like before.. dealing through a lot as you might know.. il get back to sensible blog entries soon..

for now, another survey iv answered..

1. My guy/girl's hair style should be
[ ]long
[ ]curly
[x]clean cut
[ ]kalbo
[ ]spike

2.the color of his hair should be
[x]black
[x]brown
[ ]pink
[ ]red
[ ]multi-colored *yikes!*

3.he should be a
[ ]performer
[ ]gamer
[x]leader
[ ]athlete
[x]musician
[ ]honor student
[x]prince *haha.as if!*

4. he should be
[x]tall
[x]6 footer
[ ]small
[ ]5"6 and below in height

5. He should be
[x]romantic
[ ]bad boy
[x]simple
[ ]nerd
[ ]shy *ayoko na ng shy!*
[x]smart

6.His skin should be
[ ]dark as an african
[x]mestizo
[x]moreno
[ ]anak araw
[x]tan

7. He should be good in
[ ]sports
[ ]math
[ ]science
[ ]art
[x]music
[x]cooking
[ ]fortune telling
[x]surprises

8. my ideal guy's eyes should be
[ ]big as an owl
[x]chinito *actually, kahit ano*
[ ]round eyes
[ ]none of the above

9. the color of his eyes should be
[ ]blue
[ ]green
[x]brown
[ ]red
[ ]pink
[ ]gray
[x]black

10. He should be
[x]an atenista
[x]a lasalita
[x]a UP student
[ ]Ust
[ ]Povedan
[ ]letranista
[ ]Bedan
[ ]a student in FEU
[ ]CEU ..
[ ]an augustinian

11. our age gap should be
[x]just a few months
[ ]1 year
[x]2-5 years
[ ]more than 5 years

12. our date should be in
[x]a restaurant
[ ]park
[x]cinema
[x]paris *if you do, il marry you na kahit first date palang!*
[x]sea shore *As long as I'm with the person that I truly love (& who truly loves me too),where we are is not that significant.* -->but i do love the sea especially if it's going to be with him..

i act 24 years old! naks!

2006-12-12T20:52:00.000-08:00

How old do you act?

Put an x on all thethings you can do and find out how oldyou act!!

[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee

[ ] I can do my own laundry

[x] I can cook for myself

[x] I do my chores after being told once

[x] I sometimes do my homework/work

[x] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations

[ ] I think politics are exciting

[x] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers->sometimes!

total: 6

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[x] I show up for school/work everyday unless I'm sick

[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse

[x] I watch talk shows

[x] I know what incredibility means without looking it up

[x] I drink black coffee

total: 5

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[x] I know how to run the dishwasher..and/or do the dishes

[x] I can count in more than one language

[ ] I can mow the lawn

[ ] I can wash the car

[x] I can make adults laugh... without being stupid

[x] I remember to water my plants

[x] I study when I have to

[x] I pay attention at school/work

[ ] I remember to feed my pets.

[x] I'm generally organized

total: 7

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[x] I can spell experience without looking it up

[x] I clean up my own messes

[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee--juice or hotchocolate

[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need

[ ] I understand jokes the first time they are said

[x] I can type quickly, because I type every day

total: 4

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[ ] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like that

[ ] I can watch politics and laugh

[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour

[ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job

[x] I can read a book and actually finish it

[x] People have said that I look older than I am

total: 2

Now add up how many x's you have and put "i act _ years old"

if i lose the one i love.. (i think i already did)

2006-12-10T10:49:00.000-08:00

Pano pag yung mahal mo...

1. NAWALA SAYO...** i'd cry all the tears possible..try my best to get him back.

2. MAMATAY...** my life would fall. would take a long time to put myself back together

3. INAGAW...** i'd kill them both. il make sure he'll regret it!

4. NAGMAHAL NG IBA...** gaganti ako.. i'd show it to his face that i can do better.

5. GAGUHIN KA...** gago pala xa eh!

6. AYAW NA NYA...** ask for explanations.. until i understand..otherwise, i wont be over it.

7. NKTA MO KSMA NYA EX NYA** will have that butterfly feeling in my tummy. perhaps cry.

8. BABALIK SYA SA EX NYA...** grabe na tong servey na to! if he really loves her, fine. but it won't be easy for the two of them.

9. MLMN MO NA LUV N LUV KA NYA..** id be the happiest in the world. kiss him and hug him so tight. will never let go

10. KANTAHAN KA NYA...** shuxx, naiiyak nako -- id sing with him..

11. PAKASALAN KA NYA...** i'd say yes! basta 28 nako.. haha.. id be the ideal wife if not perfect..

12. SINAKTAN KA NYA PHYSICALLY** iiwan ko xa. kahit mahal ko pa.

13.BUMALIK EX MO...** so what?! i love the present. unless that ex of mine is the ex that really made me crazy. pag ganon, obviously, id be confused. "present" should fight for me..

14. NAKIKIPAGBALIKAN EX MO...** depende sa actions ni present..pero feeling ko, kay present ako.. i love him

15. PUNTA SYA STATES PRA WORK.** i'd allow him. it's for us din naman diba? i can't stop his future. if i can get a job there also, i'd take it, just so that i could be there with him

16. MAY PIC NG EX NYA S WALLET NYA?** id cry and be angry malamang. baka awayin ko xa.. ask muna

17. INIIWASAN KA NIYA?** (can relate) id act normal. act as if nothing happened until he realizes im different and he would come back to me. basta as normal as possible. id still start conversations until such time he'd be comfortable talking to me again.

18. LAM BA NG MHAL M N MHAL MO SYA?** oo naman.. sana lang maalala niya..and feel it in his heart..

if we fall in love

2006-12-09T13:22:00.000-08:00

there will be no ordinary days for you
there is someone who cares like i do
you were no reason to be sad anymore
i am always ready with a smile
with just one glimpse of you

you don't have to search no more
cause i am someone who will love you for sure

so if we fall in love, maybe we'd sing this song as one
if we fall in love, we can write a better song than this
if we fall in love, we will have this melody in our heads
if we fall in love, anywhere with you would be a better place

you can watch that movies in a different place
so il be right there beside you, and hugging you oh so tight (oh so tight)
house will never feel so cold and empty again
cause i will keep on holding on, and won't let go (never let you go)

you don't have to search no more
'cause i am someone who will love you for sure

so if we fall in love, maybe we'd sing this song as one
if we fall in love, we can write a better song than this
if we fall in love, we will have this melody in our heads
if we fall in love, anywhere with you would be a better place

it feels so good when you're around
one smile from you (one smile from you)
fit my days feels so bright

so if we fall in love, maybe we'd sing this song as one
if we fall in love, we can write a better song than this
if we fall in love, we will have this melody in our heads
if we fall in love, anywhere with you would be a better place

.irreplaceable.

2006-11-30T13:39:00.000-08:00

**To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that's my stuff - Yes
If I bought it nigga please don't touch
And keep talking that mess, that's fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time
And It's my mine name that is on that Jag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

*Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby
You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up on that chick and see if she is home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Cause you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves *

So since I’m not your everything
How about I'll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I wont shead a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy **

music studio! and came thoughts

2006-11-27T14:51:00.000-08:00

today was a first for me in music studio na karaoke.. i went with friends like cla alma, khris, jing, henzel and pol.. grabe.. nagcut pa kmi ni henz ng philfor just to go videoke.. hahaha.. sobrang fun! i sang like a lot! lalo na si pol! namakyaw ata! just came from there nga lng eh.. may class na sila whereas for me, i have time to hit the pc. first that i sang was 'the gift'. that song is really one special song! i sang that first in april and jon's wedding with jona.. gets na why special? xa kc un eh.. everything i do with him is special. or should i say used to be.. oh well, ganyan ata tlga ang buhay.. parang life!

im tired of crying na.. baka kc ako lng eh.. nagsasayang lang ako ng oras! pero i still cant get it out of my system. lalo na the whole weekend. started last friday. he went to my house late in the evening which was also a first since he never spent just some free time in my place. it used to be just because of the prom or caroling with the choir. now that everything's over, parang senseless ang lahat! i can't even function normally..

starting yesterday, i was really feeling down. physically, mentally, socially and emotionally.. let me repeat that, emotionally! i really was! i dont know the exact reason or maybe i do but im not sure if it's the only reason: he is being cold to me.. he's giving me the cold shoulder... sobrang weird kc we never talked the whole day yesterday.. from 430 to 10 in the evening.. ayoko na.. i mean it's worse than him telling me that we are not gonna work.. him not talking to me is really worse than that.

today, mas malala! talagang wala akong nagawa for school. let's start with accounting. deadline today ng financial statements ng practise set and may homework. la ako ginawa. then 9am was my deadline to finish the scaf boards and booths for sc.otreas pero zero output from me. (sori otreas) at least nauna ko nang nagawa last week ung door hangers na layout, at least un di nadamay sa pagkadown ko) then, i have class in philfor ng 1250, la parin. nagcut ako.. now, free time sana to study for the exam later ng 330 for busorga class, la parin.. di man lang nagbuklat ng notebook!

see what a mess iv been without you?! hindi naman kita sinisisi ok? if ever you read this anytime in the future, im not blaming you at all.. i just have to get these emotions out. me being a mess with my work is not your working so don't feel blamed. (nasasaktan na nga ako, pinapangalagaan pa rin kita) i love you so much. i cant get my mind straight even just for studies. i thought going back to the choir would make you happy since you wanted this naman.. pero bakit uncomfortable ka? ang gulo mo naman.. well, im not leaving the choir for this issue again. i left once because of you, and it's never gona happen again. if il be leaving again in the future, il make sure it's not anymore because of you.

and one last thing.. bakit ikaw ang uncomfortable with the situation? dapat nga ako eh.. you dumped me remember?! grabe! you're really one hell of a creature you know that? you're such a first. hay! in time... in time, il get over you.. i wont even think about this day ever again..in time...

sad eyes

2006-11-24T14:17:00.000-08:00

i went to school knowing that i look good. i put on make-up to cover the hurting face. i was not able to study, again, but now, i just didn't want to, i feel so down to even worry about studying. could you be thinking about me too? i miss those days wherein i didn't worry about boys cause you were always there. i wish it could be always and forever but forever is a tough one. Now, there's no more forever. Jenn saw me a while ago. she complimented my make-up but she said i couldn't carry it since i have very sad eyes. i can't do anything about that now right? i really am sad naman talaga eh. i couldn't hide it. well, i used to, but now i just can't. it's bursting out of me. i never thought it would end just like that. we were never in a relationship but there was something more than just a fling. i couldn't accept his reasons, it's just unacceptable. it has to be more than just a feeling that it wouldn't work out, i know something's bothering you but why can't you tell me? these sad eyes won't go away. for as long as i feel hurt, it will continue being sad..

.every smile entails another cry.

2006-11-23T22:10:00.000-08:00

title says it all.. i had a lot of fun this week and suddenly, one call will take all my smiles away.. every smile really entails another cry. maybe now, i have to think about it before i can give the heartiest smile iv always had. now, its just so hard. why can't it be just smiles. ung walang kapalit.. i feel that god has given you to me and now, he just took you back. i wasn't able to maximize the time.. being in love is one happy and very nice feeling pero sabi nga nila, kakambal din nito ang sakit.. it sucks..

im surely gonna miss the smile i used to have on my face.. hir are some pics this week.. im never gonna be able to have that smile so beaming when deep inside, it hurts so much..

..baby, my song for you.. heard this sa radio sa taxi kanina...

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In THE years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

**Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last **

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

say goodbye by s club 7

.the worst night of my life.

2006-11-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

i wish i just didn't bring up the topic. i wish i could take it all back. i wish i could just go back years ago so that i could not have done what i had done. i wish i could just be that person to be beside you and not the girl behind, be the girl you also want to keep and not push away. i wish i could do everything and put things in place so that there will be no pain in our hearts. i wish i realized how blessed i am of you long ago. i wish i realized soon enough that you are the one for me. i wish i could just make you change your mind and let me show you how much i care and how much i love you.

there are many wishes to lengthen that list up but then, wishes will just remain wishes cause it's all over.. last night was the worst of my life. actually second. the first is when my auntie died.. your reasons are so vague. i just couldn't accept that. before you left, we had some things unfinished and we promised to talk about it when you get back but we didn't. wat's so painful was that you didn't even get to call me or even greet me nung birthday ko. iv given up a lot of things thinking that it will make you more comfortable. there was no question about that. i didn't think twice, when i realized how much i love you and want to work it out, there were no questions, i just did it. and now im asking myself, is it worth it?

it's so painful. just so painful. i never knew id be hurt like this now. i always said to myself that im never gonna allow myself to be so stupid and even cry for a guy. but you know what, i got that all wrong. once you've found that someone, everything's possible.. im hurting inside and out. and the worst thing is, even if he ended it, im not mad at him. im rather mad at myself. i talked to two of my friends about it just a while ago in school, sbi nla maybe he doesn't want me to be affected with what he's going on right now but then i want to be there.. he doesn't want me to carry that burden for him..but i want to. im happy to. and now, everything just doesn't make any sense.

lord help me. love is such a cliche. i need him and i know he needs me too but doesn't want to. he doesn't make me feel that he needs me.. and i hate it. maybe goodbye is the word for you now, but i hope it won't last that long. i'm not going anywhere. im just here.. i love you.. jona.....

.jpia party.mugenbar.

2006-11-19T12:04:00.000-08:00

me, rence(hot), my sister, jing, khris :: party all night!

last night was the night! haha.. jpia party in mugen bar, ortigas.. sobra enjoy! not just the party but because i had my friends to share it with.. merong search for ms. and mr. jpia (org in dlsu) . patawa nga eh kc nung question and answer, ung question was to make an accounting equation of their personality : assets - liability = equity! haha.. patawa tlga kc payabangan nlng lalo na the boys.. then there was this dare thingy.. para ngang naging gay night kc gay people from some gay bar ang emcees.. i love it!

another reason for me to be happy that night was because HE came.. i love him for it.. i love him for infinite reasons but i loved him more last night.. although we didn't share much time together.. ano na friends? should i go for it? im scared eh.. i dont want to lose him.. prang everyday is a last chance.. he proved me wrong for some of the doubts i had last night.. he was tired and all, but he went during a last minute call..

i got a little tipsy! hahaa.. so wat's new? i had a couple of drinks.. si rence ba naman ang katabi ko eh, sobra kulit.. (si lawrence see feeling hottie during the entire contest!) .. ako, four bottles of strong ice and 2 shots of vodka! hahaha.. wala na xa nun eh.. i could drink na! saya! i got a little dizzy na nung awarding and sawayan... xmpre sayaw na kami nila jing.. girl power! hahhaa... well nyway, before i got so wasted, jing dragged me to starbucks to have coffee.. i love my friends sobra.. they take care of me eh..

wen's the next party?? tara! last night kc was good kc i knew the crowd since it was la salle thingy.. kaya saya makakita ng mga familiar faces.. got home around 1am+.. alrightee then, till next time.. here's some pics: (check my multiply also: there's a whole folder - http://steph01memyslfndi.multiply.com)

more friends: mel's eyes and arlene and a friend pa
icebergs dinner: me, jing, stella

me and lawrence + san mig strong ice

.there's always a first.

2006-11-17T21:19:00.000-08:00

tapat peepz
post-dizziness with henzy in busorga class

today is really one unique day for me.. know why? i got drunk.. nothing extraordinary right? but here's the catch: in school!!!! hahaha.. after philfor class, niyaya ko ba naman ang aking dear friend na si greenie to go to gp.. i didn't have plans of drinking alright.. just for a smoke lng dapat and tambay.. pero ano ba naman tong nangyaring to.. si greenie pumayag and we went there.. she ordered na! hahaa.. patay! i completely lost my mind.. i forgot that i hadn't eaten the whole day and that was already 230 in the afternoon!! and so, you want to guess wat happenned?! sumakit tiyan ko, ulo ko, muscles ko.. i ordered yakisoba nlng.. shet.. at first ok lng.. and then, umiikot na paningin ko! hahaha..

buti nlng nakita kami ni andrew.. credits for andrew uy! hatid daw niya ako sa class.. hindi ko daw kaya maglakad ng straight.. oh hell yes, it was true! i struggled to get to class which is on the other end of lasalle and third floor pa! hahhaa.. so dizzy.. tahimik lng tlga ako sa class.. hahaha..

went home feeling silly of myself.. wat the heck did i do?! will never happen again..

for the record: i was just tipsy! si greennie talaga, bangag na, as in lasing to the max! mga texts niya malimali na... lasing tlga xa..

yan kami ni greennie

.miscellaneous ideas.

2006-10-30T12:04:00.000-08:00

oct. 27 - hell week is finally done! today is the last day for midterms, and im glad im still alive after all those things and hardships iv had! speaking of whick, ipoleco and philfor! ayoko na! magdodoctor nlng ako!!!!!! life would be a little bit different i guess. then again maybe not! haha.. nung wednesday, after midterms in accounting ng mga 1030am, sbi ko uwi nko to be able to study ipoleco and all, nagmakaawa pa skin si eunice pra lng magstay for her.. help her study daw, xmpre i said no.. i needed to study na tlga.. went home and watdafuck! nakatulog ako till 430 in the afternoon! la rin kwenta.. dpat pla nagstay nlng sa skul! haha.. this wat eunice's calls karma baby!!! thurs- studied philfor.. i think! i know i did pro bat ganon? pagdating nung test, ala na! prang wlang aral na nangyari!!! hate it! abangan nlng sa mga susunod na blog ang grades during hell midterms!

oct.28 - sarap magpahinga after hell week! hahhaha... slept till 12 noon goodness gracious! made laro baby vasco.. ang cute tlga ng pamangkin ko! love him so much! tpos went to hospital pra magpalaboratory.. pagdating sa bahay si tito nagising na after his fave siesta (kaya nananaba!) haha.. and gusto na niya umalis to go to metrowalk.. fine! wala parin akong ligo ah! 4 in the afternoon na ata! nagbihis lng.. went to metrowalk, at aba! si tito dear, ang bait! nadali siya that day cause i bought the complete seasons of one tree hill, grey's anatomy and gilmore girls! hahaha.. thanks tito! love you so much my dad and tito in one.. wat will my life be without your existence.. i miss auntie tuloy during these moments..hay! pagdating sa house, diretso sa banyo bago pa may maisip na puntahan ulit, ligo na rin..

oct.29 - went to buy grocery in makro.. after, went to sm with ate, kuya jerry and baby vasco.. on the way, holy kettle corn and big chill! love it! bsta sila ate ang ksma.. hehehe... pag uwi, i cooked sisig and bonding na naman kmi ni tito during dinner.. around 9 in the evening, si yaya, may dala ng foam sa room ko! tito wants to sleep in my room!!!! may bago akong roommate guys! haha.. nagkaroon xa ng bulinggit eh.. notorious ata ung room niya eh.. so last night was a first... eh i was watching pa nmn one tree hill and magaaral pako, around 10 wla na, lights off na.. no more one tree hill, no more reading for busorga exam.. nice tlga.. haha.. love you to!!!

watch out for more details on certain matters...

.happy halloween!.

2006-10-29T19:36:00.000-08:00

ok guys, halloween has finally come! happy halloween! hehee.. trick or treat na ba??? candy galore na dpat.. hehehe.. magingat na sa mga taong nakakausap since baka mamaya, multo na pala o kung ano na yan.. we cant tell really since it's halloween! pray hard! hahaha.. so far, la pa naman eh.. pero for the lasallians like me, good luck! no vacation, school parin.. ano ba nman to? lahat bakasyon, tayo nasa skul prin.. nov.1 lng no class.. good luck sa mga results ng midterms.. the hell to midterms... fail na naman kaya to?? hehe.. i dont think so! haha.. sana... nyways, happy halloween friends!

.take me away.SO.

2006-10-25T11:58:00.000-07:00

From your walk to your style
From your lips to your smile
Got me feelin like a child
And baby I just want it all for me
Baby tell me that it's all for me
From your kiss to your touch
Got me needin it so much
Boy I got a crush
And with you is where I wanna be
So please tell me that its all for me

*I love it I dont want it to stop
Every minute I'm without you always seems like a lot
Feels like I'm in a dream when I'm not everytime I get close to you
Please don't wake me baby cause
I really hate seein you go
But you gotta handle business, yeah baby I know
?? when you walked out the door
Please take me away with you

From the look in your eye
You want me as bad as i want you in my life
Baby lovin you feels like a dream
And your lovin has become a need
Every time that you go
I get a pain in my heart, and that lets me know
I just gotta have you all for me
Baby tell me that it's all for me **

A love like yours is hard to find
Can i be yours will you be mine
I think its time
Please take me away with you
Cause you bring out the best in me
The greatest love I've ever seen
Is what I need please take me away with you **

just take me away please??

just love this song by stacie orrico. this isnt out yet.. dont you just feel sometimes that you want to break free from all stress and problems? at times, i also want to go away... in this song, prang imagination lng.. xmpre i wouldn't go with another naman noh! im not that nuts yet! hahaha.. in my dreams, yes i want to.. pro hirap eh... all for my thoughts..

.joyride! don_q.

2006-10-22T23:38:00.000-07:00

sunday is usually rest time for me but then i have to study. but guess what, instead of doing so, i went with jing to peta theater. haha.. great tlga noh??? katamaran to study to the heights na!.. we watched don_q there and hell yeah, it was funny alright but i couldn't understand some parts since they were talking about ragnarok stuff... pero funny naman eh.. taxi kami going there.. pero pauwi, we saw this jeep going to vito cruz.. xmpre sakay kami. anlayo pala nun! spent an hour or so in the jeep just to take us to vito cruz.. hahahaha... antraffic sa espania to quiapo ah! cant believe it.. para kaming nagssite.seeing ni jing lalo na pagdating sa may roxas boulevard..hahhaa.. ok lng naman..

pagdating sa harrison, sakay kami ng tryk to starbucks.. halatang di marurunong kc sumisigaw kami sa loob evrytym may kasalubong.. cant help it if we feel mababangga kami! jeep to buendia then we ate all our hunger out in wendy's!!! si jing antakaw sobra! 2 big bacon mushroom melt with fries and frosty.. hahha.. antakaw.. may bring house pa.. from there, taxi to powerplant! ang gastos sobra! pero fun naman.. para kaming mga timang.. hahah.. jing, alis ulit tayo ng ganun.. pero wag na ganon ka late pg.uwi.. to the max eh.. sunday evening kaya.. hahah.. so, pano ba yan???? accounting midterms ako bukas ng morning! ang galing tlga.. good luck to me!!!!

.insensitivity at its finest.

2006-10-21T16:59:00.000-07:00

.insensitivity at its finest.

today is probably the most personal and serious talk jenn and i had throughout our entire stay and our entire friendship years in lasalle. im happy to have known such a person that i know is full of things to give to other people. she doesn't deserve a treatment like what she's experiencing right now. i can totally relate. we sat down for lunch today and talked about the "guy" issue. told her my story and true enough, we understood eachother better ever than before. i love such conversations. you get to keep your feet and head to reality..

for the girls out there, dont you just agree that all we want is a guy that could totally understand us????? it's not that we're being selfish or something but of course we wouldn't want someone who will just give us problems and more tears to cry. it's such a cliche that we are experiencing but what can we do? guys tend to be so insensitive most of the times. this is in the case of those guys different from the rest. probably some guys would disagree of course but this is for "those" guys.. hay grabe. . ok lng to jenn, kya natin to.. kya mo yan.. remember lang lage na ako nga years na eh.. get mo na yun.. there's a lot more in store for you, for us in the near future.. i just hope it wouldn't take so long.. can't wait forever for that person.. as for you, give it some time.. love yah jenn!!! friends matter this time of crisis.. :D

.pinoy dream academy.kaasar.

2006-10-16T17:21:00.000-07:00

.pinoy dream academy.kaasar.

expulsion night nung saturday.. i wasnt able to watch pero grabe, anyone but rj! kawawa naman si yeng.. now she realizes his worth in his life.. mahal naman pala niya eh, ang dami pang dahilan. kala mo kung sino akong masalita no? ako rin naman.. hay!..

wats amazing is how one realizes something when its almost over. kung kelan wla ka na halos magawa.. at least he's gonna wait for her outside.. cryness.. hay!

.feeling doubtful.

2006-10-14T21:59:00.000-07:00

.feeling doublful.

hmm, ano iniisip niyo ha? haha.. yes i feel doubtful, but not about the "love" issue! haha.. it's hard to admit but im doubting myself these days. doubting my acts. parang patamad ako ng patamad. not in all aspects and not all the time naman pero still, i feel it at times. i know in myself that i shouldn't be feeling it at all but i guess, it's very evident that even i, myself can see. others tend to neglect or not notice but i do. if i compare myself to how iv done and managed things in the past from now, oh man i suck! sobra! i used to be so level-headed. my mind always win in the game but now, parang sobrang lax. and i hate it! grabe. what happened? tell me friends.. what do i need? who do i need? questions i intend to answer real real soon! hay.

spent this day so boring but worthwhile?? ibang topic to ah.. haha.. sabi ko na kc, sabog tlga ako! nyway, its a saturday but i hav skul for orient2. i found it a little annoying but then again, since i went, everything can still some up to being worthwhile. why? attendance and grade! haha.. two saturdays lang to eh kaya dapat. the facilitator kc sobrang parang trying hard to be so fun and hip pero parang pilit. feeling ko, nerd un nung college! cum laude eh! haha.. pero kahit ganon, we still made fun inspite of him! activities (some) were ok naman.. meron nga kanina isang game, ur in this group and then one of u sits in front, the facilitator sticks something in ur forehead and you have to guess that in a minute. how? by asking questions to the group that are only answerable by yes, no, or pwede.. kainis! eto na, ako ung tinawag sa second round! 'blackboard' ung word, di ko pa nahulaan! hahaha.. grbe.. so bitter! so pressured na tlga if your the one in front and the rest of them relying on you.. pano na kaya when skul is over and it's time to go out to the world? hay.. cge bye na muna.. nakakadown tong mga songs sa pc ko.. haha.. hmm. miss him.

.all this time.

2006-10-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

.all this time.

I lie awake

Thinkin of the days gone by

Wishin that your still here with me, baby

I was wrong

And now your gone

Please here this heart of mine

Hear me callin'

* whenever you're arround me

I feel different in your arms

With the way you touch me

I feel the love that last a lifetime

**your love so true

And i never knew

That its you i need

All this time

You see these tears

That keep fallin from my eyes

Wishin that i never let you go my baby

Take this heart

Fill me with your love

Please hear these words of mine

Hear me callin'

grabe. get it why i always say its prior to change? coz it does really. now, this is the song that my heart sings. im not saying, that's what's happening but i just love this. i wish that the day would come that he would sing this to me and id sing with him after he swayed me by his charm and love. id join him.. for eternity.. hay! sarap mangarap.. all this time.

.life is a mess.

2006-10-11T14:49:00.000-07:00

.life is a mess.

can't really explain why this is how i feel for the moment. all i can say is that life is a real damn mess. katmaran is in the air lage. i want to study pero kulang parin everytimel. im not like this. everybody who knows me would agree na im not really like this. ewan ko ba. nasanay nalang lage ako na, paeasy2 nalang lalo na last term. kung kelan walang distractions, ngayon pa nagkakaganito. hay! ang gulo ng life. im a total mess these days. all i do is eat and watch tv. i hav to put a stop to this insanity and be back to my old and real self. yeah that's what id do. swear to all who'll read this. if not, cut my head and cook it for supper! iv done so much mess already. have to pick up the pieces on my own and be back just like before. kaya ko. im not gonna be a total bum anymore.

.ano ba.

2006-09-24T15:21:00.000-07:00

.ano ba.

wat do you want anyway? coming back to me or what? make up your mind! nakakapagod ka.. pagkatapos mo akong awayin nang todo todo, gaganyan.ganyan ka?! cant read your mind grabe..ano ba tlga gusto mo patunayan jan? know wat? just stop texting me nalang.. i didnt change my no. just for you to bother me once more.. hay ewan.. women and men just dont go together at times no? ganon ata tlga.. pano ba naman, we're from two different planets.. men are from mars and women are from venus.. haha..

.i fear 22 out of 70.

2006-09-23T12:28:00.000-07:00

.i fear 22 out of 70. pwede na

I Fear...

[ ]the dark
[x]staying single forever
[ ]being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ]open spaces
[ ]closed spaces
[x]heights
[ ]black cats
[ ]dogs
[ ]birds
[ ]fish
[x]spiders, ticks and/or other insects
[ ]driving or being in cars
[ ]flying
[ ]flowers or other plants
[ ]being touched
[x]fire
[x]deep water
[ ]the ocean
[x]failure
[ ]success
[ ]thunder/lightning
[ ]frogs/toads
[ ]my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ]my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ]mice/rats
[ ]jumping from high places
[ ]snow
[ ]rain
[ ]wind
[x]crossing hanging bridges
[x]death
[ ]Heaven
[x]being robbed
[ ]cotton balls
[ ]cemeteries
[ ]clowns
[ ]large crowds
[ ]men
[ ]women
[ ]having great responsibilities
[ ]doctors, including dentists
[x]tornadoes
[x]hurricanes
[ ]diseases
[X]snakes
[X]sharks
[ ]Friday the 13th
[ ]poverty
[x]ghosts (more of the supernatural)
[ ]Halloween
[ ]school
[ ]trains or railroads
[ ]odd numbers
[ ]even numbers
[ ]being alone
[x]being blind
[x]being deaf
[ ]growing up
[X]monsters under my bed
[X]creepy noises in the night
[ ]bee stings
[x]not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x]needles
[X]blood
[ ]dinosaurs
[ ]the welcome mat

..from jenncuz

what a girl wants but most guys won't give..

2006-09-16T21:21:00.000-07:00

what a girl wants but most guys won't give..

-leave her sweet text messages.

-kiss her in front of your friends.

-trust her over everyone else.

-tell her she looks beautiful.

-look her in the eye when you talk to her.

-tell her stupid jokes to make her laugh.

-let her mess with your hair.

-just walk around with her.

-include her in all things you do.

-when she cries, do whatever it takes to makeher smile.

-forgive her for her mistakes.

-look at her like she's the only girl you see.

-tickle her even when she says stop.

-hold her hand even when you are around yourfriends.

-when she starts swearing at you, tell her youlove her.

-let her fall asleep in your arms.

-get her mad, then kiss her.

-tease her and let her tease you back.

-stay up with her all night when she's sick.

-watch her favorite movie.

-kiss her forehead.

-give her the world.

-write her letters.

-her wear your clothes.

-when she's sad, hang out with her.

-let her know she's important.

-let her take all the photos of you she wants.

-kiss her in the rain.

-call her every night.

....and when you fall in love with her, love her likeyou've never loved before... :)

>>>from jencuz

.countdown.

2006-08-31T23:20:00.000-07:00

.countdown.

40 mins till my birthday! and im officially 19! tumatanda na.. hehehe.. ang saya!.. greet me!..

.termbreak na!.

2006-08-31T22:28:00.000-07:00

.termbreak na!.

finally! after more than three months in la salle, termbreak has finally come.. it's been a week since i had no class days and may i say it's so amazing! haha.. :D sleep is the word for the week! hahaha.. nakabawi narin sa lahat ng puyat na dala ng accounting! and others.. :D ewan ko ba, nakakamiss rin ang school pero im taking advantage of the moment since minsan lang ako makacomplete ng tulog cycle.. hehe..

so wat happened? la lng... sleep, kain, play with vasco, shop, grocery, shop, tv and most especially internet of course!.. just got home actually, went shopping.. would go back tom since midnight madness sale na sa glorietta.. finally! id find a dress to wear to mc's debut and also a gift to give her.. oh lord help me!

that's all muna, chat time! ciao..

.click!.

2006-08-12T21:25:00.000-07:00

.click!.

grabe! dia, baba and i went to powerplant after relstwo thinggy in school.. we had a very fun time sa car palang! love those people.. it's a love day today and love talk.. it's good to be open about it you know.. you cant just shut the fuck up and deny everything.. nyways, had lunch in tokyo.tokyo and boy was it a feast! well, maybe it was since we were really hungry already.. hahaha.. anyone there who want beef misono or california maki perhaps?? hehehe.. nangiinggit lng..

then, movie time! watched click! we wanted to watch sukob again sana since dia is so excited about it pero the thing was, baba and i are done watching it so we were torn between miami vice and click.. and of course ended up with the better desicion which is click!! click it! hahahaha..

the movie was so fun.. as i said, it was the better choice... we were laughing our hearts out of the movie despite the fact that we were really feeling cold in the cinema.. except dia.. kapal ng balat! hahaha.. take note: powerplant cinema is really given na malamig uber ung cinema.. but then in the later half of the movie, we were all crying naman.. as in the three of us! especially me.. wont tell you why.. wont spoil the movie no! watch it friends! basta bottomline: i missed auntie dearie because of that... so friends!!! go go go watch!!! hurry! you'll miss half of your life if you don't, promise!!!!

alrightee then, till the next blog.. ciao..

.nu107.school of rock.

2006-08-08T20:20:00.000-07:00

..dlsu people! alyansang tapat sa lasallista offers you all a concert tomorrow.. ubreak time: 1-230pm.. this is in cooperation with nu107 home of nu rock.. this is our project for filipino week celebration.. party time peepz..

bands:

kamikazee

pinikpikan

pupil

punta keo, it's free.. in amphitheater nga pala to..

this is brought to you by:

alyansang tapat sa lasallista, mang tomas, juicy fruit, rexona, nu107, levis and lots more sponsors.. cya!!

.tapat's 21st anniv.

2006-08-07T18:32:00.000-07:00

uhmm, alyansang tapat sa lasallista now stands for 21 years.. 21 years full of glory, happiness, sadness, and all adjectives there is to describe.. with our platform of having a just and free society, come join us as we celebrate our 21st anniversary together with your party, tapat.. with tapat alumni, and our vips..you!

party's in:

where : club halo --> amorsolo st, makati

when : saturday aug12

time : 9pm onwards

how much : p150 with one drink

attire : 80s

a must have : cameras, smiles and just have fun!!!

join us!

steph madamba --> tapat services vice chair

signing off!

.sukob.

2006-08-05T20:06:00.000-07:00

watched sukob today with henzy! and god was my sister right when she told me id be shouting the whole 2 hours! hahaha... very thrilling.. kaasar pa nga eh kc la pang nakakatakot, nagccgawan na sila! grabe! puno ung cinema though.. at least! katakot kapag kami lng or just a few! hahahaha... hmm, come to think of it, can it be possible? i mean, baka mamaya sukob sa kasal or sa patay ung ibang tao jan. we never know right? but hey, how silly nmn.. cguro kung meron, naheadline na! hahaha.. watch keo.... highest rating... our pix before the movie..

hungry anyone? matatapang manood moment of truth: sukob

.jumpstart!.

2006-07-28T16:11:00.000-07:00

hey cla fast 2006! mid.campaign na and i hope you guys have an idea already of whom to vote for this coming elections: aug 2,3,4.. and i do pray that's TAPAT..

batch representatives.. --->

migs BUSTOS

alex CRAIG

legislative assembly representatives.. --->

yu ri CHOI

renee CARAIG

good luck to all!

count yourselves in! let tapat give you that JUMPSTART..

vote straight TAPAT!

vote for a just and free society!

.ms. universe..nd others.

2006-07-25T18:06:00.000-07:00

..hmmm,.. la ako magawa.. second day na to na walang pasok.. kala nyo nababagot ako? ndi ah.. im loving it.. un nga lang.. la naman akong magawa dito sa bahay since umuulan.. woke up at around 10 in the morning.. nanood lang ako ng replay ng ms. universe sa star world.. yey, puerto rico won.. as always and as expected.. hahaha.. bravo to the philippines! ms. photogenic ah.. hahaha..

ano pa ba? i went to the office sa gitna ng baha to reproduce the baptismal rites chuva for my pamangkin.. and then sulong ulit the car sa baha to go to the airport to pick up tito.. la pasalubong! hmmph! hahha.. meron naman, lechon from the province.. hahaha..

.la pasok.again.

2006-07-24T22:25:00.000-07:00

..hmmm, la na naman pasok bukas! second time around and it just gets better.. im loving it! why so? 2 reasons: 1-no accounting and 2-no report in relstwo..not prepared kc eh.. hahha. thank god it's a no class day tomorrow..ung accounting: natural na talaga yan. haha! hay! ang sarap..

so how was my day? boring.. i just sat in front of the computer and made something out of adobe photoshop.. hmmm, kala ko ba il be hating it after wat happened last sat?! oh well, i did something.. and the whole day, i just sat here sending the "something" to all of my friends in friendster as testimonial.. hear y'all?! open ur friendsters now and i made each one of you a testimonial.. not to mention a very beautiful one! the best! hahaha.. go on go on, open em...

ano pa ba? chat chat chat.. un lng.. buti nga di pa naggigive up tong pc ko eh.. hahaha..

ay meron pala akong nagawang worthwhile today! i did my homework in relstwo! hahaha. woohoo.. finally, something with sense came to my mind today.. hay, kala ko la na pagasa..

anyone who wants hot cholocate with marshmallows?? anyone? i know you do.. especially since malamig ang panahon.. if not, coffee then?? for your information, masarap ako gumawa ng coffee! magbrew pala since i brew my coffee... swear! it's hazelnut flavor..credits from cordillera coffee in katipunan and ucc coffee in the fort.. wnt some? if you do, punta keo dito sa bahay ko.. that is if la baha seneo... hahaha.. dito kc wala eh.. :P ang labo ko noh? ganyan ata tlga pag whole day ka nasa pc.. hahaha..

one last thing: happy fiesta to all the peepz of tanjay city, neg. or. (mah province).. i know ur celebrating right now.. sana la bagyo jan unlike here.. hahaha.. sayang im not there..

so that's it muna guys, babayow! enjoy the day.. enjoy the night.. enjoy the cold breeze..

wanna.party?

2006-07-24T20:18:00.000-07:00

im jst helping out tsard! so read this:

Hey guys! We would like to invite you to come over to the SMIRNOFF BAR TOUR event this Saturday, 29 July 2006, at INDUSTRY, Tomas Morato. Entrance is around Php500, with 10pm to 12pm OPEN BAR. We'll also be in CITRUS on the 11th of August, and TEMPLE on the 25th. Let's party hard, partyphiles! See you there! Peace out!

summary:

July 29 (sat) - industry, tomas morato; P500-entrance; 10pm to 12mn open bar

August 11 - citrus, glorietta 2

August 25 - temple, greenbelt

.flowers.

2006-07-22T12:29:00.000-07:00

know wat's weird? i woke up this morning with flowers in my head.. as in literal na flowers.. parang i want to see flowers, pink ones, white ones.. etc.. hahaha.. someday, i want to wake and see that my entire bed and room is full of petals and flowers.. hmmm.. gotta wake up from the dream gurl.. hmmph..

.im sori.

2006-07-21T20:00:00.000-07:00

..agen, for everything, "im sori".. so silly.. you always say that. when will you stop? di ka ba nagsasawa at all? paulitulit nlng to eh. it's just the same old story. siguro nga you read stuff here in my blog but dont judge me as if you know wats happening in my life. dont tell it to my face that i dont care about wats happening coz goddamnit i do care. so many things have changed in my life and i know a lot more will change especially now that things already happened. things didn't turn out ok but so what? we chose it right? you did and so did i so blame is completely nothing. so in the end, we're still like this and i think lage nlng tlga tayong ganito.. nakakalungkot kaya pero ganun eh.. now, move forward lng.. nothing will change na.. wat happened happened already and there's no more turning back. kahit ganon, im not that selfish nmn to just forget and leave. i can still be a friend..friends, which i think we will only be..

.saya ng araw.

2006-07-18T22:46:00.000-07:00

..baket? simple, i passed accounting! hahhaa.. for midterms yan.. yey! ang saya2 ko na! kaya friends: let's go out!

pero may kapalit: 2 consecutive mondays na may alternative class for accounting.. starting on monday! want to know the time? 6:30 - 9:30 pm lng naman! grbe! dahil daw sa bagyo last week.. huhuhuhu..

pero still, i passed! there's a cause for a celebration! double celebration pala, 1st: i have a new skin for blog 2nd: i passed actbas1.. three accounting courses to go.. hahaha..ang layo na ng pangarap ko!.. hahaha..

..bang!..

2006-07-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

..poof! la lang.. have a new skin i know.. hahaha.. blog: editted..

.pictures.tapat.

2006-07-15T17:19:00.000-07:00

.haha! more pictures from tapat! meeting of salmons during break sa velasco bldg. haha.. di nakikinig noh? obviously! pictures!!!!! we love pictures so damn much.. always brings digi cam everyday since we dont know when a picture is up to take.. hahaha.. love these people.. look at us!

watta face jesusa!

sunlight oh sunlight

a part of iel, me, henz, nicole, angel..goofing around

..see more of us in the halls of dlsu.. sa tapat tambayan lng pala! haha.. love you guys..

.im an artist.

2006-07-12T17:47:00.000-07:00

.classes are suspended! that was the case earlier today at exactly 11:20 am but you want to know something? we continued our class in artapre till 12:40! hahhaha.. but it was ok.. there was an activity that's why.. sculpture making.. making our very own masterpieces.. im not artist in this field talaga but hey, i got another purple mark in artapre class so ok lng..

yep that's it. i know it looks more of coco crunch.. im sori.. i told you na nga ahead of time na im not a pro in this field eh.. hahaha.. want to see the work of the rest of the class? see the album in my multiply site: http://steph01memyslfndi.multiply.com/photos/album/18

enjoy! and remember: you are an artist in one way or another.. feel it in your heart! naks, makata nako ngayon..

facing the odds

2006-07-10T17:06:00.000-07:00

mon. 10 july, 2k6

..go tapat!.. woohoo.. tom na ang convention for cla frosh! kaya niyo yan guys.. exciting sobra.. frosh elections na naman.. hahaha.. good luck to all frosh aspiring to run for office.. to the rest who went to trainings, welcome to tapat core!.. join services arm guys! im services vice chair with reena and ticky is chair.. again, good luck! this is stephitary signing off!..

..filipi2 post..

2006-07-02T15:07:00.000-07:00

sun. 2 july 2k6

time management

kailan ko kaya matututunan yan? gustuhin ko man, hanggang dun na lang ata talaga ako. ngayon ay kailangan kong makahanap ng financial statements para sa accounting business plan na kailangan nga pala naming matapos ng 3:30pm bukas kasi mayroon pa kaming ibang kailangan tapusin pagkatapos ng oras na iyon. grabe na talaga ito ah. maliban diyan ay kailangan ko ring aralin ang lahat-lahat ukol sa art appreciation dahil midterms na bukas. alge102 rin pala. hala! paano kaya? tulong naman jan! time management? magaling ako diyan noong high school pa lamang ako. ngayon, ewan ko na lang. tulong!

steph madamba

to: mr. rhod nuncio

..filipi2 post..

2006-06-30T23:38:00.000-07:00

fri. 30, june 2k6

Ang hirap naman maging malungkot. Nakakapagod din pala. Umalis na siya noong isang araw at hindi ko akalain na ganito ang mararamdaman ko. Sa totoo lang, maganda naman yung pag-alis niya dahil para naman ito sa eskwelahan niya. Miyembro kasi siya ng Ateneo Glee Club kaya ngayon, may Europe tour sila. Saya no? Ang LaSalle kaya, kelan magkakaroon ng ganyang mga tour? Sasali talaga ako pag meron. Para kasing masaya kapag kasali ka sa isang grupo na kumakanta at pumupunta sa iba't-ibang lugar para lamang makapagperform. Ito ay talagang magbibigay ng karangalan sa iyong eskwelahan at sa iyong sarili.

steph madamba

to: mr. rhod nuncio

..the end??..

2006-06-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

thur. june 29, 2k6

..he's gone. "my boo" is gone.. such perfect timing talaga.. just when i finally had the guts to tell him everything and let go of all the fears that i was feeling, it was too late. i cant do anything about it na.. not that he's not coming back. but it's worse than that. he coming back here in the next few months will do nothing na.. you want to move on? the heck with it! are you crazy or nuts by the way? you tell me that you love me and all that shit and then say that you want to move on muna and have a life different from the 6 years you've had?! that's bullshit! pinapahirapan mo bako? gusto mo tlga ako patayin ha? 3 days na akong bangag in school and i cant get myself together because of you.. shet, ang sakit! you know wat i think? ginagantihan moko for whatever you think i did to you.. im sori if im saying this but that's how i see it.. it doesnt make sense at all! if that's what you want, you'll get it.. you're right, bumalik ka man and magchange man ang nafifeel ko or whatever, it wouldn't change anything at all. now i understand.. goodbye "boo"..

..music..song for you..

2006-06-27T23:53:00.000-07:00

the painter by o-town

(song for "my boo")

Hmmmmm... If I were a painter, mixing my colors

How could I ever find, the blue of your eyes?

The canvas can never, capture the light of your smile Of your smile

And girl, if I were a sculptor, working in marble

I couldn't hope, to copy your perfect face

The curve of your body, the feel of your skin

My hands could never, ever trace

Chorus: So I'll try and find a melody as beautiful as you

Find the words to say your eyes are bluer than blue

Fill my voice with the emotion I'm feeling for you

And now, when the beat is so strong

I'll give my heart in a song

Oh girl If I were an actor, I could be someone

Someone who'd always know, the right things to say

But as soon as I'd see you, I'd forget all my lines

And you'll never know, what I feel inside

Chorus There's no other way (no other way)

That I know to say (I know to say)

Baby, how much I love you

And if you'll only give me a chance

Oh girl,

Chorus x2

I'll do, I'll do what I do You know why, know why?

Your eyes are bluer than blue

Uh huh, yeah, I said I'll do what I do

I'll give my heart in a song

You know I'm not a painter, actor, baby

It dont matter I'll give my heart in a song

Oh, you're so beautiful

Give you my heart in a song

..heart, how r you?..

2006-06-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

tues. 27, june 2k6

..so, musta nmn puso ko? hay nako grabe.. wat a day..

..watched the lakehouse with "my boo".. naku, blind item itoh!.. haha...well, cant write much in here, xmpre this is on the net.. censored! haha.. jowk lng.. oh well.. it was fun and exciting?! and most especially hurting.. i had a very weird mixed feeling.. i dont even have the perfect word to describe wat i feel or how i felt at that particular time..

"my boo" loves me and so do i.. 6 years had passed us by and yet it left us nowhere.. ang hirap pala noh.. or baka im just making it so complicated.. but you know, it really is! yes, we may have problems but hey, as i said, we may not be totally how we wanted things to be but who knows, in 6 or 8 years, we see each other again and you know na.. lam mo na un.. pinagusapan na natin.. if there's one thing i never want you to forget, that is the future i imagined with you and the very fact that i love you.. this is not just the cheezy things ah.. its true.. different from the rest.. malamang nmn cguro noh! 6 long years.. i know iv caused you so much pain.. im sori.. im sori.. il never forget this night.. the 27th of june, 2k6.. il nvr forget the tok, the kiss, and all the rest..

know how this night could be described? spent it like it was my last day on earth.. il miss you..

ingat ka sa trip.. contact me.. answers may not be there in 4 months time but who knows.. basta.. "my boo" will always be my boo.. forever.. you may learn to love somebody else and so do i but never forget that you never stop loving a person, you may love them less, but ul always love them.. "we" are living proofs of that..

suggestion to all: do not watch lakehouse with your bf's.. hay nako.. grabe..haha..

..weekend, finally!..

2006-06-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

sat. june 24, 2k6

..hay, finally it's weekend.. its now officially 1248 in the morning and i just got done in doing summary of expenses for ate shey.. hay! you just have no idea how tiring this week had been.. swear! school, tapat, salmon babies, home,ACCOUNTING!, and all the rest! tiring sa tapat kc hirap maghanap ng tamang sked to jive with my babies in salmon.. we finished the tasks/tapat challenges that they have to do.. it was so fun though especially the polvoron and shouting part! hahaha..

..also joined esa this week and made rtr for the tapat frosh party that we will be having, actually it is being held now.. in citrus bar.. ndi nlng me punta, tamad! and pagod! nagayos pa ng sobrang daming membership cards and up to now, still finding the cards of my babies.. wen i say babies, not literally ah, they are my group as a salmon teamleader!.. hehehe.. umaasenso nako eh.. this year, i prospered a lot na.. became tapat core officially, joined otreas because of jennlazo, joined esa for my course, became a salmon teamleader, became straight active in the services arm of tapat, cut my hair and had bangs...etc...

..just one more thing missing: pass accounting!.. kelan kaya un? hmmm, had quiz4 last thursday and i can already say that i failed it.. hindi ako umabot test4.. leche! alam ko how to do it.. its just that kulang tlga time! pakshet tlga!.. sarap pakulam.. and now, i guess prayer will be the best nlng.. he texted nga kanina eh, read 6 chapters and answer unit 6 of workbook.. hindi nmn xa maxadong caring noh?? hay..

oh cge sha! antok nako.. byers..leave me tags..

..filipi2 1st paper..

2006-06-11T23:43:00.000-07:00

sat. june 11, 2k6

Bakit hindi kailangang iintelektwalisa ang Filipino sa bansa?

Noong unang beses ko itong tinanong sa aking sarili, bakit nga ba hindi? Kung ating titignan, yung ibang mga bansa, gumagamit ng kanilang mga lengwahe na intelektwalisado na sa kanilang pamumuhay. Bakit nga ba tayo hindi? Bakit wala tayong sariling lengwahe na panglahatan na yun nga ay ang Filipino? Katulad na lamang ng Amerika, lahat sa kanilang pamumuhay ay gumagamit ng Ingles na intelektwalisado na na lingwahe? Hindi naman tayo makakakita doon ng mga Amerikano na nagsasalita ng Filipino sa kanilang bansa, hindi ba? Katulad na lamang din ng Europa. Kahit na alam na natin na ang wikang Ingles talaga ang ginagamit, sila ay hindi sumasali sa ganito. Ang kanilang lengwahe ang kanilang ginagamit, wala silang paki-alam kung hindi ka nila maintindihan pag kinausap mo sila sa ibang lengwahe. Ganap na intelektwalisado na talaga.

Sa tingin ko, ang primera na dahilan kung bakit hindi kailangang iintelektwalisa ang Filipino dito sa bansang Pilipinas ay sa kadahilanang hindi ito praktikal. Sa pagpapaintelektwalisa ng Filipino, marami ang kailangang gawin. Ang pinakamahalaga dito ay upang maiintelektwalisa ang Filipino, kailangan nitong mapalitan ang wikang Ingles. Isipin natin ng mabuti. Kung gagawin natin ito, kailangan mapalitan ang lahat ng mga libro at mga babasahin tulad ng mga dyaryo, magasin, pati na ang mga pinapanood natin sa telebisyon. Sa mga libro pa lamang ay napakahirap na kung iisipin. Ipagpalagay na lamang natin sa kursong medisina, o di naman kaya ay matematika? Papano naman kaya? Mahirap talaga at hindi natin ito maiintindihan ng mabuti. Hindi laman yan. Pag ginawa natin ito, papano na lamang ang mga gamut na ating kinukuha sa iba pang mga bansa? Hindi naman natin ito pwedeng palitan lahat ng mga leybel at ang iba pang mga nakasulat.

Sa sarili ko, masasabi ko rin na hindi ko ito kailangan. Kasalukuyan ay kumuha ako ng double major sa Unibersidad ng De La Salle na European Studies at Finance. Hindi ko talaga magagamit ang Filipino dito. Unang-una, ang kailangan kong pagaralan ay ang wikang French, at ang mga babasahin ay lahat sa Ingles at French lamang. Pangalawa, hindi ko naman maaaral sa Filipino ang aking mga aralin. Pangatlo, sa pag-aaral nito, ang mga terms ay nasa ibang lengwahe na at hindi naman pwedeng palitan. Katulad na lamang ng sa pinans, pano mo gagawing Filipino ang mga salita na ginagamit sa bangko at anumang usapang pera?

Kahit na lamang sa ating pangaraw-araw na pamumuhay ay mahirap na nating mapapalitan ng Filipino ang lahat ng mga salita. Isipin natin, sa wikang Filipino mismo ay meron na ring mga hiram na salita sa Ingles at ito ay tanggap na. Babaguhin natin ang lahat pag ito ay ating ginawa at tayo rin ang mahihirapan. Komportable na at sanay na ang mga tao sa kanilang ginagamit na salita. Papano na lamang ang mga literaturang ginagawa ng mga Pilipino na nasa ibang lengwahe katulad na lamang ng mga kanta o mga babasahin?

Napakakomlikado ng pagpapaintelektwalisa ng isang wika, maliban na lamang ang aking mga nabanggit sa unang bahagi ng essay na ito ay kailangan din nating magpatayo ng iba’t-ibang mga institusyon na sumusuporta sa adhikaing ito pati na rin ng mga eskwelahan at mga ospital para makatulong sa layunin ng pagpapaintelektwalisa ng Filipino.

Noong pinalitan natin ng Filipino ang lingua franca mula sa Ingles, ang mga Pilipino ay hindi nahirapan sapagkat sa Filipino ay gumagamit na rin tayo ng mga salitang Ingles na tinatawag nating salitang-hiram. Ngunit kung ang pinaguusapan ay ang pagpapalit ng lahat ng ito sa purong Filipino, mahirap talaga. At tulad ng dahilang aking binanggit kanina ay talagang hindi ito praktikal sa kahit na sino dahil lahat tayo ay hindi sanay at ang mundong ating ginagalawan ay kinakailangan ng Ingles at hindi Filipino. Hindi ko naman sinasabi na hindi natin ito kailangan ngunit kailangan din natin ang Ingles. Ang hindi pagpapaintelektwalisa sa Filipino ay hindi naman nagpapatunay na hindi tayo makabayan at atin itong kinakahiya ngunit gusto lamang nating maipakita na sa mundong ito sa kasalukuyan, kailangan talaga natin ang Ingles maging sa eskwelahan o sa pagnenegosyo.

*the end*

submitted by: steph madamba

to: mr. rhod nuncio

% musta nmn ang sabado natin jn?! %

2006-06-10T17:04:00.000-07:00

sat. june 10, 2k6

..hahaha.. guess how i spent this saturday.. mall? friend's house? sleeping? muvi? nah! mali kayo lahat! hahaha.. well, accounting class lng nmn!!! c wat i mean?! who d hell in the right mind would want to take up 3 straight hours of accounting on a saturday?! i didn't but heck, i dont have a freakin' choice!

..just got home from school to have just one subject, accounting.. hay! ang hassle na talaga nito ah.. ang dami na nagdrop sa kanya.. pano nmn kc, out of 3 tests, 0 ang pasado! c guerlan lng ata ang pumapasa dun eh!.. ssshhh sa lahat ng nakakakilala sa kanya.. hahaha.. peace out!

..ewan ko lang ah kung pano namin lahat natagalan! no break pa.. all about the freakin' financial statements! hahaha.. genius nako nito by the end of the term.. she`he gave out our tests kanina, and guess wat? out of 3, 1 lng ang pasa.. pasang-awa pa! lord, kelan ka ba maawa sakin, sa amin??? hehehe.. frustrated nako! who could help me out??? tutor please??

..sm mall of asia..

2006-06-09T18:24:00.000-07:00

..saya naman!.. just got home from school.. and from sm moa.. hahaha! wala na class eh and 4pm pa dpat ung meeting namin ni henzy with tapat and so we decided to go to sm moa.. ang laki! ang sakit na ng paa ko.. nkakawala tlga.. hahaha.. shopping! im surely going back! hahaha.. who want to go wit me?? tag me lng if ya'll want..

..xmpre ang takaw namin sa tokyo tokyo! hahaha.. with extra rice pa.. hahaha.. nyways, balik sa skul ng 4pm since ang sabi ni justic ticzon bumalik kami para gumawa ng boards chuva.. and guess wat? ndi rin pala tuloy.. dapat pala umuwi nlng kami! hay!.. at least nkapagmall kami ni henzy.. may bago ako ring! hahaha..

..nagsasama ulit ang mga csr peeps sa tapat tambayan.. saya! ang ingay namin.. lalo na nung kanchawan ni tj si henzy.. pano ba naman, legs niya, arm lng ni tj.. hahahaha..look alike chastin daw ako?!??!!!! ndi kaya.. huhuhuhu.. tell me im right!! ohmi!!!

now.. my feet are soaring.. i walked from buendia station to my house! know why?? because im such a good friend! sinamahan ko pa mag train si henzy... ok lng.. mahal ko kc un eh! anak ko daw sabi nila.. hahaha..

..im out of thoughts na eh.. bukas ulit! hihihihi.... know wat i lacked today?? picture in sm moa! huhuhuhu.. nxt tym nlng.. il go back swear.. shopping!.. hahaha.. ciao!

..want to get away..

2006-06-09T00:53:00.000-07:00

..nakakapagod na tlga ang accounting! its still the third week since start of school and yet i feel that i want to end the term, just for accounting though!..

..got home from school today looking like a real mess and not to mention failure! 2nd class ko ang accounting and guess wat? favorite na ata naming gawin ang mag.test.. pinagsabay ba nmn ang quiz 2 and 3?! who would do that?? well, the answer is him/her.. get it? him/her? that's the prof! urgghhh.. i know that i studied but oh well, it's still not good enough.. wen will it be good enough bah? world, just tell me para wala nang puyatan and hirap.. hahha.. sana ganon ka simple..oh well, better luck next time.. after that accounting tests, religion class na! i really didn't have the energy to go to the class anymore, actually i decided na nga sana on cutting since attendance is not a must! hahaha.. the problem is, dia's ntbk. is with me, so no choice, pumasok nlng since nandun na sa prof. na from siquijor.. hahahaha.. ( want to know a secret?? - - - i dont understand anything that she had said from the very beginning of our class 3 weeks ago till now! swear! i dont even get wat the topic is.. ) psst, secret lng un ah!!!

..next to this day's agenda is to study artapre (art appreciation course).. about wat? duh, ART! MUSIC! WOLFGANG AMADEUS MOZART!.. hahaha.. just got done studying.. im burning kc into dvd the semi-finals of womens in the french open and pag dvd kc, sobrang tagal matapos ng burning process.. that's why im blogging!..

..i want to continue this kind of habit of blogging.. blogging seriously.. not just plain blogging.. m gonnna edit the whole thinggy soon.. right now, its almost 1 in the morning and i have a freakin' class pa tom.. so, ciao!

..horrible bus ride!..

2006-05-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

grabe! first time kong mag.bus today! and it was horrible.. well, a little exaggerated though pero grabe tlga.. sinamahan ko mag.commute si henzy and siyempre, first time kong mag.bus! sabi ko nga mag jeep or fx nlng kami bsta not the bus! hahaha.. grabe kc mag.break ung driver! hahaha.. pero ok lng.. it was fun din nmn.. ang ingay nmn ni henzel! jeep nmn daw kami bukas! good luck nlng samin! hahaha.. moochness!

` school again..

2006-05-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

..school has started..

..grabe noh! ang bilis! today is the 43rd day of auntie.. i miss her sobra..

but oh well, school is here. and guess wat??? im busy again!

..tapat, osec, opec, and other hidden agendas!..

..hahaha..

..tell me guys, why did i put economics and accounting on the very same day of schedule and magkasunod pa ng time?! ano ako, baliw????!!!!! ganun na nga ata.. ano ba yan..

..ang init pa, ang hirap mag.aral! actually, hindi pa umaandar utak ko kaya walang aral aral right now.. ok noh?? gayahin nyo ako..

cge folks! till nxt blog post.. ciao!

..da vinci madness..

2006-05-27T17:34:00.000-07:00

..so love the movie.. would watch it all over again! hahaha.. addict!

(people magazine) ..a new master of smart thrills..

..a pulse-quickening, brain-teasing adventure..

(denver post) ..thrilling writing doesn't get any better than this..

watch it na! bilis!

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