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STEPH MADAMBA Saturday, December 16, 2006
i know it's wrong. or is it? you make me feel like what im feeling and or doing is wrong. is it so bad to wish for things to be back to normal again? is that too much to ask for. you always say that you just want understanding. and i do kahit malabo. i dont want to be part of that circle of people who dont understand you but why do always push me away? everytime we come that close, you put a wall in front of me. i know i may have done that to you too but hey, we were kids then! we were afraid of doing all the wrong things. i was afraid of hurting you more. but now, we were sure of our feeling didn't we? but now, it seems all complicated. nothing's complicated naman talaga eh. we just make them that way. it's all so simple. we love each other or not. i know that we do. you told me that you do, and i told you the same thing pero actions are really the opposite nowadays no? hay!
im not gonna wish for anything more this christmas. i just want normacy in our lives. if it can't be the two of us then so be it but not like this. it's killing me and i know nahihirapan ka. pareho lng tayo. but you know what's different? me wanting us to be friends at least because you wanted to and here you are wanting to be friends but can't have enough guts to even smile at me. you can't even look at me in the eye. what are you so afraid about? im here to stay and i aint gong anywhere.
i miss you so much do you know that? i miss the times you were there at all times. the times that i could always run to you. the times that you were the guy i dreamt about and been thinking about. i miss the times when i was the only one. when i felt important to you. i miss the smiles, your voice, your embrace, your kiss. i miss everything about you. even the things i hate about you.. everything.
the least you could do is act normal in front of them. shut me out as long as you want if that will make you happy but never in front of them. hindi sila dpat nadadamay satin. gulo natin to, not the whole group. i know you've been going through a lot. but if so, if you love me like the way your saying, then i should be beside you and i will help. problems are just problems we can solve, i would solve with you. but never alone.
face it, im back and im here to stay. i ain't leaving again. never again because of you. kahit mahal kita.. when i left back then, i realized that leaving for space is never going to be good reason and will not do anything good for anyone. it will never do good. running away wont solve a thing. i hope you realize that too.. dont wait until i feel nothing anymore and be a different person.. i miss you.. you not being the guy but you being the friend... whatever a friend may mean..
and when the time comes that you do, il be here.. always and forever..
im not gonna wish for anything more this christmas. i just want normacy in our lives. if it can't be the two of us then so be it but not like this. it's killing me and i know nahihirapan ka. pareho lng tayo. but you know what's different? me wanting us to be friends at least because you wanted to and here you are wanting to be friends but can't have enough guts to even smile at me. you can't even look at me in the eye. what are you so afraid about? im here to stay and i aint gong anywhere.
i miss you so much do you know that? i miss the times you were there at all times. the times that i could always run to you. the times that you were the guy i dreamt about and been thinking about. i miss the times when i was the only one. when i felt important to you. i miss the smiles, your voice, your embrace, your kiss. i miss everything about you. even the things i hate about you.. everything.
the least you could do is act normal in front of them. shut me out as long as you want if that will make you happy but never in front of them. hindi sila dpat nadadamay satin. gulo natin to, not the whole group. i know you've been going through a lot. but if so, if you love me like the way your saying, then i should be beside you and i will help. problems are just problems we can solve, i would solve with you. but never alone.
face it, im back and im here to stay. i ain't leaving again. never again because of you. kahit mahal kita.. when i left back then, i realized that leaving for space is never going to be good reason and will not do anything good for anyone. it will never do good. running away wont solve a thing. i hope you realize that too.. dont wait until i feel nothing anymore and be a different person.. i miss you.. you not being the guy but you being the friend... whatever a friend may mean..
and when the time comes that you do, il be here.. always and forever..