Stephie.

Friday, June 30, 2006

fri. 30, june 2k6

Ang hirap naman maging malungkot. Nakakapagod din pala. Umalis na siya noong isang araw at hindi ko akalain na ganito ang mararamdaman ko. Sa totoo lang, maganda naman yung pag-alis niya dahil para naman ito sa eskwelahan niya. Miyembro kasi siya ng Ateneo Glee Club kaya ngayon, may Europe tour sila. Saya no? Ang LaSalle kaya, kelan magkakaroon ng ganyang mga tour? Sasali talaga ako pag meron. Para kasing masaya kapag kasali ka sa isang grupo na kumakanta at pumupunta sa iba't-ibang lugar para lamang makapagperform. Ito ay talagang magbibigay ng karangalan sa iyong eskwelahan at sa iyong sarili.

steph madamba

to: mr. rhod nuncio

Thursday, June 29, 2006

thur. june 29, 2k6

..he's gone. "my boo" is gone.. such perfect timing talaga.. just when i finally had the guts to tell him everything and let go of all the fears that i was feeling, it was too late. i cant do anything about it na.. not that he's not coming back. but it's worse than that. he coming back here in the next few months will do nothing na.. you want to move on? the heck with it! are you crazy or nuts by the way? you tell me that you love me and all that shit and then say that you want to move on muna and have a life different from the 6 years you've had?! that's bullshit! pinapahirapan mo bako? gusto mo tlga ako patayin ha? 3 days na akong bangag in school and i cant get myself together because of you.. shet, ang sakit! you know wat i think? ginagantihan moko for whatever you think i did to you.. im sori if im saying this but that's how i see it.. it doesnt make sense at all! if that's what you want, you'll get it.. you're right, bumalik ka man and magchange man ang nafifeel ko or whatever, it wouldn't change anything at all. now i understand.. goodbye "boo"..

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

the painter by o-town

(song for "my boo")

Hmmmmm... If I were a painter, mixing my colors

How could I ever find, the blue of your eyes?

The canvas can never, capture the light of your smile Of your smile

And girl, if I were a sculptor, working in marble

I couldn't hope, to copy your perfect face

The curve of your body, the feel of your skin

My hands could never, ever trace

Chorus: So I'll try and find a melody as beautiful as you

Find the words to say your eyes are bluer than blue

Fill my voice with the emotion I'm feeling for you

And now, when the beat is so strong

I'll give my heart in a song

Oh girl If I were an actor, I could be someone

Someone who'd always know, the right things to say

But as soon as I'd see you, I'd forget all my lines

And you'll never know, what I feel inside

Chorus There's no other way (no other way)

That I know to say (I know to say)

Baby, how much I love you

And if you'll only give me a chance

Oh girl,

Chorus x2

I'll do, I'll do what I do You know why, know why?

Your eyes are bluer than blue

Uh huh, yeah, I said I'll do what I do

I'll give my heart in a song

You know I'm not a painter, actor, baby

It dont matter I'll give my heart in a song

Oh, you're so beautiful

Give you my heart in a song

tues. 27, june 2k6

..so, musta nmn puso ko? hay nako grabe.. wat a day..

..watched the lakehouse with "my boo".. naku, blind item itoh!.. haha...well, cant write much in here, xmpre this is on the net.. censored! haha.. jowk lng.. oh well.. it was fun and exciting?! and most especially hurting.. i had a very weird mixed feeling.. i dont even have the perfect word to describe wat i feel or how i felt at that particular time..

"my boo" loves me and so do i.. 6 years had passed us by and yet it left us nowhere.. ang hirap pala noh.. or baka im just making it so complicated.. but you know, it really is! yes, we may have problems but hey, as i said, we may not be totally how we wanted things to be but who knows, in 6 or 8 years, we see each other again and you know na.. lam mo na un.. pinagusapan na natin.. if there's one thing i never want you to forget, that is the future i imagined with you and the very fact that i love you.. this is not just the cheezy things ah.. its true.. different from the rest.. malamang nmn cguro noh! 6 long years.. i know iv caused you so much pain.. im sori.. im sori.. il never forget this night.. the 27th of june, 2k6.. il nvr forget the tok, the kiss, and all the rest..

know how this night could be described? spent it like it was my last day on earth.. il miss you..

ingat ka sa trip.. contact me.. answers may not be there in 4 months time but who knows.. basta.. "my boo" will always be my boo.. forever.. you may learn to love somebody else and so do i but never forget that you never stop loving a person, you may love them less, but ul always love them.. "we" are living proofs of that..

suggestion to all: do not watch lakehouse with your bf's.. hay nako.. grabe..haha..

Saturday, June 24, 2006

sat. june 24, 2k6

..hay, finally it's weekend.. its now officially 1248 in the morning and i just got done in doing summary of expenses for ate shey.. hay! you just have no idea how tiring this week had been.. swear! school, tapat, salmon babies, home,ACCOUNTING!, and all the rest! tiring sa tapat kc hirap maghanap ng tamang sked to jive with my babies in salmon.. we finished the tasks/tapat challenges that they have to do.. it was so fun though especially the polvoron and shouting part! hahaha..

..also joined esa this week and made rtr for the tapat frosh party that we will be having, actually it is being held now.. in citrus bar.. ndi nlng me punta, tamad! and pagod! nagayos pa ng sobrang daming membership cards and up to now, still finding the cards of my babies.. wen i say babies, not literally ah, they are my group as a salmon teamleader!.. hehehe.. umaasenso nako eh.. this year, i prospered a lot na.. became tapat core officially, joined otreas because of jennlazo, joined esa for my course, became a salmon teamleader, became straight active in the services arm of tapat, cut my hair and had bangs...etc...

..just one more thing missing: pass accounting!.. kelan kaya un? hmmm, had quiz4 last thursday and i can already say that i failed it.. hindi ako umabot test4.. leche! alam ko how to do it.. its just that kulang tlga time! pakshet tlga!.. sarap pakulam.. and now, i guess prayer will be the best nlng.. he texted nga kanina eh, read 6 chapters and answer unit 6 of workbook.. hindi nmn xa maxadong caring noh?? hay..

oh cge sha! antok nako.. byers..leave me tags..

Sunday, June 11, 2006

sat. june 11, 2k6

Bakit hindi kailangang iintelektwalisa ang Filipino sa bansa?

Noong unang beses ko itong tinanong sa aking sarili, bakit nga ba hindi? Kung ating titignan, yung ibang mga bansa, gumagamit ng kanilang mga lengwahe na intelektwalisado na sa kanilang pamumuhay. Bakit nga ba tayo hindi? Bakit wala tayong sariling lengwahe na panglahatan na yun nga ay ang Filipino? Katulad na lamang ng Amerika, lahat sa kanilang pamumuhay ay gumagamit ng Ingles na intelektwalisado na na lingwahe? Hindi naman tayo makakakita doon ng mga Amerikano na nagsasalita ng Filipino sa kanilang bansa, hindi ba? Katulad na lamang din ng Europa. Kahit na alam na natin na ang wikang Ingles talaga ang ginagamit, sila ay hindi sumasali sa ganito. Ang kanilang lengwahe ang kanilang ginagamit, wala silang paki-alam kung hindi ka nila maintindihan pag kinausap mo sila sa ibang lengwahe. Ganap na intelektwalisado na talaga.

Sa tingin ko, ang primera na dahilan kung bakit hindi kailangang iintelektwalisa ang Filipino dito sa bansang Pilipinas ay sa kadahilanang hindi ito praktikal. Sa pagpapaintelektwalisa ng Filipino, marami ang kailangang gawin. Ang pinakamahalaga dito ay upang maiintelektwalisa ang Filipino, kailangan nitong mapalitan ang wikang Ingles. Isipin natin ng mabuti. Kung gagawin natin ito, kailangan mapalitan ang lahat ng mga libro at mga babasahin tulad ng mga dyaryo, magasin, pati na ang mga pinapanood natin sa telebisyon. Sa mga libro pa lamang ay napakahirap na kung iisipin. Ipagpalagay na lamang natin sa kursong medisina, o di naman kaya ay matematika? Papano naman kaya? Mahirap talaga at hindi natin ito maiintindihan ng mabuti. Hindi laman yan. Pag ginawa natin ito, papano na lamang ang mga gamut na ating kinukuha sa iba pang mga bansa? Hindi naman natin ito pwedeng palitan lahat ng mga leybel at ang iba pang mga nakasulat.

Sa sarili ko, masasabi ko rin na hindi ko ito kailangan. Kasalukuyan ay kumuha ako ng double major sa Unibersidad ng De La Salle na European Studies at Finance. Hindi ko talaga magagamit ang Filipino dito. Unang-una, ang kailangan kong pagaralan ay ang wikang French, at ang mga babasahin ay lahat sa Ingles at French lamang. Pangalawa, hindi ko naman maaaral sa Filipino ang aking mga aralin. Pangatlo, sa pag-aaral nito, ang mga terms ay nasa ibang lengwahe na at hindi naman pwedeng palitan. Katulad na lamang ng sa pinans, pano mo gagawing Filipino ang mga salita na ginagamit sa bangko at anumang usapang pera?

Kahit na lamang sa ating pangaraw-araw na pamumuhay ay mahirap na nating mapapalitan ng Filipino ang lahat ng mga salita. Isipin natin, sa wikang Filipino mismo ay meron na ring mga hiram na salita sa Ingles at ito ay tanggap na. Babaguhin natin ang lahat pag ito ay ating ginawa at tayo rin ang mahihirapan. Komportable na at sanay na ang mga tao sa kanilang ginagamit na salita. Papano na lamang ang mga literaturang ginagawa ng mga Pilipino na nasa ibang lengwahe katulad na lamang ng mga kanta o mga babasahin?

Napakakomlikado ng pagpapaintelektwalisa ng isang wika, maliban na lamang ang aking mga nabanggit sa unang bahagi ng essay na ito ay kailangan din nating magpatayo ng iba’t-ibang mga institusyon na sumusuporta sa adhikaing ito pati na rin ng mga eskwelahan at mga ospital para makatulong sa layunin ng pagpapaintelektwalisa ng Filipino.

Noong pinalitan natin ng Filipino ang lingua franca mula sa Ingles, ang mga Pilipino ay hindi nahirapan sapagkat sa Filipino ay gumagamit na rin tayo ng mga salitang Ingles na tinatawag nating salitang-hiram. Ngunit kung ang pinaguusapan ay ang pagpapalit ng lahat ng ito sa purong Filipino, mahirap talaga. At tulad ng dahilang aking binanggit kanina ay talagang hindi ito praktikal sa kahit na sino dahil lahat tayo ay hindi sanay at ang mundong ating ginagalawan ay kinakailangan ng Ingles at hindi Filipino. Hindi ko naman sinasabi na hindi natin ito kailangan ngunit kailangan din natin ang Ingles. Ang hindi pagpapaintelektwalisa sa Filipino ay hindi naman nagpapatunay na hindi tayo makabayan at atin itong kinakahiya ngunit gusto lamang nating maipakita na sa mundong ito sa kasalukuyan, kailangan talaga natin ang Ingles maging sa eskwelahan o sa pagnenegosyo.

*the end*

submitted by: steph madamba

to: mr. rhod nuncio

Saturday, June 10, 2006

sat. june 10, 2k6

..hahaha.. guess how i spent this saturday.. mall? friend's house? sleeping? muvi? nah! mali kayo lahat! hahaha.. well, accounting class lng nmn!!! c wat i mean?! who d hell in the right mind would want to take up 3 straight hours of accounting on a saturday?! i didn't but heck, i dont have a freakin' choice!

..just got home from school to have just one subject, accounting.. hay! ang hassle na talaga nito ah.. ang dami na nagdrop sa kanya.. pano nmn kc, out of 3 tests, 0 ang pasado! c guerlan lng ata ang pumapasa dun eh!.. ssshhh sa lahat ng nakakakilala sa kanya.. hahaha.. peace out!

..ewan ko lang ah kung pano namin lahat natagalan! no break pa.. all about the freakin' financial statements! hahaha.. genius nako nito by the end of the term.. she`he gave out our tests kanina, and guess wat? out of 3, 1 lng ang pasa.. pasang-awa pa! lord, kelan ka ba maawa sakin, sa amin??? hehehe.. frustrated nako! who could help me out??? tutor please??

Friday, June 09, 2006

..saya naman!.. just got home from school.. and from sm moa.. hahaha! wala na class eh and 4pm pa dpat ung meeting namin ni henzy with tapat and so we decided to go to sm moa.. ang laki! ang sakit na ng paa ko.. nkakawala tlga.. hahaha.. shopping! im surely going back! hahaha.. who want to go wit me?? tag me lng if ya'll want..

..xmpre ang takaw namin sa tokyo tokyo! hahaha.. with extra rice pa.. hahaha.. nyways, balik sa skul ng 4pm since ang sabi ni justic ticzon bumalik kami para gumawa ng boards chuva.. and guess wat? ndi rin pala tuloy.. dapat pala umuwi nlng kami! hay!.. at least nkapagmall kami ni henzy.. may bago ako ring! hahaha..

..nagsasama ulit ang mga csr peeps sa tapat tambayan.. saya! ang ingay namin.. lalo na nung kanchawan ni tj si henzy.. pano ba naman, legs niya, arm lng ni tj.. hahahaha..look alike chastin daw ako?!??!!!! ndi kaya.. huhuhuhu.. tell me im right!! ohmi!!!

now.. my feet are soaring.. i walked from buendia station to my house! know why?? because im such a good friend! sinamahan ko pa mag train si henzy... ok lng.. mahal ko kc un eh! anak ko daw sabi nila.. hahaha..

..im out of thoughts na eh.. bukas ulit! hihihihi.... know wat i lacked today?? picture in sm moa! huhuhuhu.. nxt tym nlng.. il go back swear.. shopping!.. hahaha.. ciao!

..nakakapagod na tlga ang accounting! its still the third week since start of school and yet i feel that i want to end the term, just for accounting though!..

..got home from school today looking like a real mess and not to mention failure! 2nd class ko ang accounting and guess wat? favorite na ata naming gawin ang mag.test.. pinagsabay ba nmn ang quiz 2 and 3?! who would do that?? well, the answer is him/her.. get it? him/her? that's the prof! urgghhh.. i know that i studied but oh well, it's still not good enough.. wen will it be good enough bah? world, just tell me para wala nang puyatan and hirap.. hahha.. sana ganon ka simple..oh well, better luck next time.. after that accounting tests, religion class na! i really didn't have the energy to go to the class anymore, actually i decided na nga sana on cutting since attendance is not a must! hahaha.. the problem is, dia's ntbk. is with me, so no choice, pumasok nlng since nandun na sa prof. na from siquijor.. hahahaha.. ( want to know a secret?? - - - i dont understand anything that she had said from the very beginning of our class 3 weeks ago till now! swear! i dont even get wat the topic is.. ) psst, secret lng un ah!!!

..next to this day's agenda is to study artapre (art appreciation course).. about wat? duh, ART! MUSIC! WOLFGANG AMADEUS MOZART!.. hahaha.. just got done studying.. im burning kc into dvd the semi-finals of womens in the french open and pag dvd kc, sobrang tagal matapos ng burning process.. that's why im blogging!..

..i want to continue this kind of habit of blogging.. blogging seriously.. not just plain blogging.. m gonnna edit the whole thinggy soon.. right now, its almost 1 in the morning and i have a freakin' class pa tom.. so, ciao!